this is your life

blogging seems to hav lost its gist to me
so long blog, i guess i'll dig u up, sometime later in my life, when there is something good to write
when i dont use you, to type this nonsensesical make no sense rantings
im sorry i didnt choose this to be
its not my fault dear blog.
but then again, its not ANYBODY's fault.
it just worked like this, i've got nothing to say. yet i am saying something now.
im jealous abt everything, im feeling so empty.
this year started like wth.
and though so many people tried to knock that feeling off me
its still wth for me, cauz
since it left and i was alone. the lights lost their shine
and the stars hav fallen. the walls are pale
and the faces are fierce. the interesting turned annoying.
a beautiful are now mere nothing
the dust has became everything. the sky has lost it shine,
the sun has hid her face. just like... how you did yours.
the phone is a jarring, the sweet sound drowned.
the good has gone, the bad's around.
its this lonely, on this path leading who-noes where
is just this lonely corridoor. its darkness like all.
walked here for years, till the day u came.
now im walking it again
like things never changed.

if u could, turn this world upside down, bring me back
to life.
restore the colours in our eyes, the warmth that's inside.
tell me show me, slap me if u must, wake me up, before this
harshness ends.
wake me up...
NOW