God has a perfect plan. he made people in pairs, and flunk every individual all over the globe, all over the face of the earth. i thought i found the matching puzzle. but i was wrong. though maybe i might still be right, for now, im wrong. Puzzles are.. well.. puzzling. this groove that groove, the picture placed on us. watever.
well like i said before. probably the only thing that we can become, from now onwards. is to be better friends, and finally be able to talk to each other properly.
was being perverse and looking at my inbox messages. i read through every single message, i took out the lovely once, and i left the unhappy ones to be deleted.
i only wish to keep the lovely memories, how life was like, before he came in. For u, life has gotten sweeter, for me, its getting more and more bitter. so i guess, this is the last thing im doing, to honour watever we used to hav between us, before i spat this bitterness out from my mouth.
im like typing this to nobody. knowing how well that u dont, and wont hav interest in reading my blog anymore. im just this useless, when i find a person who seems more miserable then me, i feel this sense of responsibility. its just a feeling that, well i hav to do this, i hav to take care of this person. and responsibility grew into fondness, fondness grew into a seeming dependency.
but history had to repeat itself, and we were, not meant to be. You grew so fast, you overshot me. im here, left with no one, dont shed me a tear, dont live in regrets. continue to growing, continue to have fun.
its just like that, theres nothing but sadness that its come to this. we no longer talked like we us ed to be, and dont want to play tug with you as the rope, not anymore. be decisive, love him? stick onto him. dont fly here and there, behave yourself. and i know how much i sound like a
dad here. but yeah. well if thats the way u wanted things, go, cauz im for everything that u are for.
thats that, i've got to put this aside, this is a tribute, to watever we, or i held on dear.
and now, give this post an embrace, carry on with this new page written in your life, and my life. cauz. the only way i can do this, is for my life to be truly without you, or truly with you.
this means no more casual conversations on msn
no more weird and excess smses
boring christmas cards.
i didnt treasure u
i didnt care.
u came in as a substitute
as i knew HER mesaages were rare
i used you, to make me feel loved
i wasnt true. when i wanted to be
it was too late, its my fault
that u couldnt wait
no one has the rights to
control your path.
of course not a jerk
like me
and for me
there's nothing left...
i didnt treasure you
i didnt make a move
i forced u to wait
which was wat u musnt do
dont waste your time
one day these tears will freeze
you, go on
i wont bother setting
the city on fire
just to show you the light
anymore.
im sorry if this makes it feel like
you're losing a friend for the third time.
cauz..
well im sorry. i made u wait.
i didnt treasure u, at all.
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