Was reading an article today and came across this quote
"Alas my rebellious heart—what a tempest agitates me! I knew not that I had made so little progress in a spirit of resignation to the Divine will."
As the writer, Henry Martyn reflected on the way his emotions were stirred to hear that the love of his life was not permitted to join him in missions in India, he realised how little he has come to actualise "not my will but Yours be done" in his life.
I think that the recent episode has shown me that I know little about God being my treasure. I think that it has alerted me to the fact that I don't yet truly know that marriage is not to be pursued like a missing part of our lives.
Although I assent to all the ideas above, in reality I understand them so little. Am I not ashamed when I discuss them matter-of-factly in church?
Nonetheless this is the plan. I shall deal cruelly with any sexual sin that remains in my life. With renewed eyes (because those who are pure will see God), I shall peer into the next few steps of my life.
I think... that's really just it for now. No concrete plans about her. No concrete plans about... romance.
and I want to read more biographies too.
