today A math lesson was sianned to the core.
so i was talking to shawn. he was telling me abt how life sucks
which i think im quite good at now.
so we were just talking and talking
suddenly he asked me
how do you tell if someone is a hypocrite?
so i was like eh? ask for wat
and i unloaded everything i learnt during dom7 camp on him
so he went. ok wait, a pastor can be hypocritical la
and i did a loud EH!
and he change the word to the one i just thought him
double standards
we as humans, live our lives through double standards.
we fake our pro-ness, and we make others do wat we cant.
its pretty sad.
then we talked abt how teachers think they know the students
when the teachers claim that we dont do hw, they think they know
that its because we're gay, and we pon homework for fun.
thats how untrue.
teachers ask, wat do you do when you hav free time?
they find it amusing when i say that i think whenever im free
( which is quite a curse, right mabel?)
they think that thinking is foolish as it changes nothing
but they've ignored the fact that, thinking is inevitable
and its intense, its actually hard work.
wat do they know, they who spend their time not thinking
how would they know how it feels like, to be able to think
and unable to do
how would they understand, the inability to do work
when most of them are results of hard work.
its a shame teachers, that you all think that you understand
when all this "understanding" leads to more mis-understanding.
wats this, this isnt helping us, this weighs us down.
if only you teachers read my blog, life for youths..
its change, adapt or resigned, dont be our burden.
dont throw that worthless out-of-point compassion on us
when you only need that bit of understanding.
respect my face, dont claim that its arrogant.
mind your tongue, be as professional as you should be.
im done ranting, are you going to change?
no no,
cauz no one ever told you such things in your face.
well ok... dang those teachers.
shawn and i also talked abt the subjects,the curriculum.
the curriculum, is so slow and so draggy, the subjects, redundant
tell me, in my future career, where am i using binomial?
when in the world, am i going to use all these weird stuff
this is crazy, studying without a choice
we shoulnt be studying a wide range so that we can choose
our paths anyway in future.
thats so unfair.
i would go to a private school if i could, get tuition for every subject
but my family's poor, theres no point rejecting free education.
of course, freebies hav their cons.
well, i wont complain anymore, the rest i've written
on the wall of my heart, the back of my palm.
this grievance, all these uneccesary-ness.
its just but another white hair on my head.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
deluding.
lead me away when its deluding.
lead me away.
dont lets drown in lies
nor lie on fabrication.
the world's real, how real is mine?
poisoned to be immuned.
hurt to be invulnerable.
talk the untalkable
think the nonsensical
sing the inaudible.
watch life, watch it!
its the same, no matter the way you'd
live it.
Amath test... why?!
(r+1) term. binomial theorem.
differentiation. chain rule.
how do this stuff fit into me?
for wat do you all exist?
to torture or to help.
math subjects, to hell.
every action, equal opposite reaction.
break how many and get broken how many.
serves you right, you asked for it.
break an egg, and it spits back.
slap a man and get beaten.
break a heart, expect yours to be broken.
a sickness where sorry's no cure.
where doctors lost their wits
where medicine has faded
where all strivings failed.
would you leave him there
left so sick so in pain
and all was left he had
to think he called you all
his eyes were bright, you, his everything.
now you took the sunshine away
atom bombs lighted up his day
little great happenings here and there
the life is now the fuel
everythings the furnace.
burn.
pop.
gone.
just emo-ing.
JUST?!
lead me away.
dont lets drown in lies
nor lie on fabrication.
the world's real, how real is mine?
poisoned to be immuned.
hurt to be invulnerable.
talk the untalkable
think the nonsensical
sing the inaudible.
watch life, watch it!
its the same, no matter the way you'd
live it.
Amath test... why?!
(r+1) term. binomial theorem.
differentiation. chain rule.
how do this stuff fit into me?
for wat do you all exist?
to torture or to help.
math subjects, to hell.
every action, equal opposite reaction.
break how many and get broken how many.
serves you right, you asked for it.
break an egg, and it spits back.
slap a man and get beaten.
break a heart, expect yours to be broken.
a sickness where sorry's no cure.
where doctors lost their wits
where medicine has faded
where all strivings failed.
would you leave him there
left so sick so in pain
and all was left he had
to think he called you all
his eyes were bright, you, his everything.
now you took the sunshine away
atom bombs lighted up his day
little great happenings here and there
the life is now the fuel
everythings the furnace.
burn.
pop.
gone.
just emo-ing.
JUST?!
how long has it been?
how long as it been since i tried to forget.
its stuck it wont budge. A hardenned gum.
which was tasty in the mouth
awful on the ground.
sometimes we should just face it.
that wasnt the problem, the problem's me.
well, due to that lousy mind, drifting away when it shouldnt be,
i got confused during test today. its sad, but thats all it is.
chem test was ok, i mean, its like as simple as..
anything'?
ok the mood here sucks and i'll just blog when i feel like blogging
for now, its till here.
im sorry.
its stuck it wont budge. A hardenned gum.
which was tasty in the mouth
awful on the ground.
sometimes we should just face it.
that wasnt the problem, the problem's me.
well, due to that lousy mind, drifting away when it shouldnt be,
i got confused during test today. its sad, but thats all it is.
chem test was ok, i mean, its like as simple as..
anything'?
ok the mood here sucks and i'll just blog when i feel like blogging
for now, its till here.
im sorry.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
when problems are gone
when problems are gone.
you simply get more.
one after another.
first its the outside problem. its so problematic
you dont realise your problem.
so now your problem nudges in. you see it
its horrid! haha internal strife is about conflicts within an organisation
since when isit about a person?
All of them are strong at their points, but tuckyan's the one taking over
cauz the rest of them are well, really shouldnt be here.
anyway got hell tests tomorrow.
gtg la, see you guys another time,
not on this blog
where posts are way more updated than tag.
you simply get more.
one after another.
first its the outside problem. its so problematic
you dont realise your problem.
so now your problem nudges in. you see it
its horrid! haha internal strife is about conflicts within an organisation
since when isit about a person?
All of them are strong at their points, but tuckyan's the one taking over
cauz the rest of them are well, really shouldnt be here.
anyway got hell tests tomorrow.
gtg la, see you guys another time,
not on this blog
where posts are way more updated than tag.
well
this feeling's taken control of me
well, we'd just better do away with everything said yesterday
dont let him know, dont make a sound
dont make him realise the way things are
that poor fool de en will be so upset.
hello world, tuckyan's taking over
today!
that sickly loser deserves none of this space.
his emo posts deformed this blog.
he's afraid and he's a fray.
im taking over today.
he cares too much
he gives everyone the damn but himself.
yeah, prolly he damned himself.
take this over right now.
doesnt do his homework,
burns his time away. what you think he's cool
when its my play
all the way?
chased me away - but
im taking controls, today.
tomorrow's 2 tests, wat would de en do?
he'll sit and complain, and think about it
wat's it you say. it's never coming back again.
what a shame, it's trash. trashy thing
so trashy to hold on to
for wat he doesnt know, but good for us, i know
he isnt going to waste his time anymore
i've got my permission
and
i'll be taking over today.
right, maybe just today.
well, we'd just better do away with everything said yesterday
dont let him know, dont make a sound
dont make him realise the way things are
that poor fool de en will be so upset.
hello world, tuckyan's taking over
today!
that sickly loser deserves none of this space.
his emo posts deformed this blog.
he's afraid and he's a fray.
im taking over today.
he cares too much
he gives everyone the damn but himself.
yeah, prolly he damned himself.
take this over right now.
doesnt do his homework,
burns his time away. what you think he's cool
when its my play
all the way?
chased me away - but
im taking controls, today.
tomorrow's 2 tests, wat would de en do?
he'll sit and complain, and think about it
wat's it you say. it's never coming back again.
what a shame, it's trash. trashy thing
so trashy to hold on to
for wat he doesnt know, but good for us, i know
he isnt going to waste his time anymore
i've got my permission
and
i'll be taking over today.
right, maybe just today.
Monday, January 29, 2007
media
media time is slacking time. wat other things are there to do besides to blog? lol
aiyaa but there isnt anything to blog about, gtg in 10mins time
today in class we debated about compassion.
well, we show compassion?
i mean mr aw came in
and protested that retarded people deserve no respect.
well haha thats not the point.
i'll blog more abt that thing later
aiyaa but there isnt anything to blog about, gtg in 10mins time
today in class we debated about compassion.
well, we show compassion?
i mean mr aw came in
and protested that retarded people deserve no respect.
well haha thats not the point.
i'll blog more abt that thing later
Saturday, January 27, 2007
God. thats it
God, you know it hurts.
to have little standing. such a feeling..
there was no regret for me leaving.
there was no nothing.
but i believe you placed me through all that.
for a big reason.
for what i cant accomplish, there are others i can
equally.
i have to see the light i've got to.
then i'll starting pulling everyone to the surface.
in your name.
i have to learn how to balance between work and
my own interests.
i must not be jealous.
i cant keep holding on to what that doesnt belong to me.
im a mere juxtapose, i contrast others to make them better
while myself, losing everything.
God that hurts.
why cant others juxtapose to make me look better?
life is... well... life?
it hurts like nuts.
why am i still trying to be a great humanitarian.
should i throw myself off every picture
and start painting my own?
or maybe i should just....
what?!
God you know it hurts, make me feel that its worth it
to have little standing. such a feeling..
there was no regret for me leaving.
there was no nothing.
but i believe you placed me through all that.
for a big reason.
for what i cant accomplish, there are others i can
equally.
i have to see the light i've got to.
then i'll starting pulling everyone to the surface.
in your name.
i have to learn how to balance between work and
my own interests.
i must not be jealous.
i cant keep holding on to what that doesnt belong to me.
im a mere juxtapose, i contrast others to make them better
while myself, losing everything.
God that hurts.
why cant others juxtapose to make me look better?
life is... well... life?
it hurts like nuts.
why am i still trying to be a great humanitarian.
should i throw myself off every picture
and start painting my own?
or maybe i should just....
what?!
God you know it hurts, make me feel that its worth it
Friday, January 26, 2007
lord, let my love be unconditional
today was nothing much, cross country.
ran 4.8km without stopping, with speed quicker than that i would use in a 2.4
but, i didnt win anything... ugh. am i that bad?
im not atheletic, but i should still be able to win something right?
huh i dunno.
there's alot to do. i have alot more school work, but that wont be a reason
to pull my service away from God.
if im to become a failure in studies, but a success in God
then i've gained. But then again, God
remind me to stay in your ways.
for you hav promised, that those who seek your ways
will have their work blessed by you, blooming plentifully
and frightfully fruitful
therefore Lord, let my love be unconditional
unconditional & noble
today was nothing much, cross country.
ran 4.8km without stopping, with speed quicker than that i would use in a 2.4
but, i didnt win anything... ugh. am i that bad?
im not atheletic, but i should still be able to win something right?
huh i dunno.
there's alot to do. i have alot more school work, but that wont be a reason
to pull my service away from God.
if im to become a failure in studies, but a success in God
then i've gained. But then again, God
remind me to stay in your ways.
for you hav promised, that those who seek your ways
will have their work blessed by you, blooming plentifully
and frightfully fruitful
therefore Lord, let my love be unconditional
unconditional & noble
irony
to think i wrote that post
when i claimed that i
wont be leaving soon.
its confusing and its
just something i
just dont wanna be.
im running away
i dont want to see the truth.
but if u've got it prepared.
why dont you see if i want
to open my ears, and hear it too?
i do!
when i claimed that i
wont be leaving soon.
its confusing and its
just something i
just dont wanna be.
im running away
i dont want to see the truth.
but if u've got it prepared.
why dont you see if i want
to open my ears, and hear it too?
i do!
here i go, being selfish
leave a note for you my only one.
im sorry you hav to take everything
over and over,
no protesting no watsoever
swallow the "facts" hard.
but the time has come,
pull up your socks, do those knots.
this time i guess, its real
im really going for good.
cauz we cant see through one another
our lives were merely masked actors.
i dont know how you feel anymore
its different from when you told me
and brought my hopes high,
a week later, back to smash them
in pieces, unspeakable, uncountable.
im stuck here, babbling speechlessly
life has lost its direction
since you left on your way.
im going for x-country
in a moments' time.
im sorry, its like im making you
take the entire rap
its none of your business.
theres no point in me trying,
when i dont stand on anygrounds
im but a wandering nation.
unestablished, holding no nothing.
since you love him so much, go back to him.
i've waken up, i weighed the truth.
its time to be sensible.
and get on the road.
life is going to be hard, without a "you"
but thats the only direction
life is gonna do.
buh-bye.
its not like im going to forget you!
i only wished, if you told me something.
scream out the verdict, it'll feel better for me
and you.
leave a note for you my only one.
im sorry you hav to take everything
over and over,
no protesting no watsoever
swallow the "facts" hard.
but the time has come,
pull up your socks, do those knots.
this time i guess, its real
im really going for good.
cauz we cant see through one another
our lives were merely masked actors.
i dont know how you feel anymore
its different from when you told me
and brought my hopes high,
a week later, back to smash them
in pieces, unspeakable, uncountable.
im stuck here, babbling speechlessly
life has lost its direction
since you left on your way.
im going for x-country
in a moments' time.
im sorry, its like im making you
take the entire rap
its none of your business.
theres no point in me trying,
when i dont stand on anygrounds
im but a wandering nation.
unestablished, holding no nothing.
since you love him so much, go back to him.
i've waken up, i weighed the truth.
its time to be sensible.
and get on the road.
life is going to be hard, without a "you"
but thats the only direction
life is gonna do.
buh-bye.
its not like im going to forget you!
i only wished, if you told me something.
scream out the verdict, it'll feel better for me
and you.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
lol
well nothing's up
i screwed today's geog test, and i kena booking for math again
seriously, hope for me is draining away.
the teacher was like, maybe i should send you to the HOD
and i went yeahlor.
i actually said that?!
watever... :D hahaha
well its media now, and im doing nothing good
well that bugger jacon just rolled over with the video cam and caught me
blogging away during media.. haha
to hell with media la, sianed to the max lor
i mean.. aiya. i need a darned break.
thats it. thats all i'll need.
later still need to hand in homework. gtg now
see you all soon! (huh?)
well for you,
cheer up, pick yourself up
call for help if u must
remember, we cant walk our
roads alone.
friends arent there for fun.
im not placed in your life
for show.
im here, realise that.
and i havent left yet
and wont be anytime soon.
i screwed today's geog test, and i kena booking for math again
seriously, hope for me is draining away.
the teacher was like, maybe i should send you to the HOD
and i went yeahlor.
i actually said that?!
watever... :D hahaha
well its media now, and im doing nothing good
well that bugger jacon just rolled over with the video cam and caught me
blogging away during media.. haha
to hell with media la, sianed to the max lor
i mean.. aiya. i need a darned break.
thats it. thats all i'll need.
later still need to hand in homework. gtg now
see you all soon! (huh?)
well for you,
cheer up, pick yourself up
call for help if u must
remember, we cant walk our
roads alone.
friends arent there for fun.
im not placed in your life
for show.
im here, realise that.
and i havent left yet
and wont be anytime soon.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
its true
tests tests.. and finally tomorrow's home to the final test.
sheez im damned squished and im freaking tired.
ugh ugh ugh.
well when's the geog presentation gonna be?
lord if u want me to win something during x-country,
kick the headache out of my head tomomrrow.
i really want to win something, but your will be done,
not mine, no no.
teach me already. im still feeling sooo empty.
help me guide me. walk beside me.
i'll give all my life, if only you would help me
give all of my life.
its your turn, grab that joystick,
prove that the maker is
the best gamer.
maybe you just dont care
or maybe its time we started
screaming face to face.
my shoutout is true
its simple
i love you.
sheez im damned squished and im freaking tired.
ugh ugh ugh.
well when's the geog presentation gonna be?
lord if u want me to win something during x-country,
kick the headache out of my head tomomrrow.
i really want to win something, but your will be done,
not mine, no no.
teach me already. im still feeling sooo empty.
help me guide me. walk beside me.
i'll give all my life, if only you would help me
give all of my life.
its your turn, grab that joystick,
prove that the maker is
the best gamer.
maybe you just dont care
or maybe its time we started
screaming face to face.
my shoutout is true
its simple
i love you.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
sick..?
recently my health has been going up and down, not so recent, i've been struggling with it since like wat... 1 month ago? duelling with sore throats, suppressing migraines.
haha ok well, today's report is...
blocked nose, headache, muscle tear here and there (from badminton), dry eyes and sore throat.
haha cant bargain for more!
well tomorrow's like the 4 tests day, im just going to get pwned by the tests.
i guess i wont be running for the x-country this friday.. ugh to think that it was my last chance to get a medal from cross country... sorry class.
i wished to run one ok... but i might as well not run if im going to do so like a joker.
anyway, today geography class was kinda hilarious.
i went up to write my answer on the board. and i didnt do the work yet, so i did on the spot.
my writing went like. 30 degress diagonally upwards.
and everyone was like stop writing la tuck yan! stop!!!
NECK PAIN!!
etc.
and so after im done writing, i almost covered 1/3 of the board with my 6 marks question answer. well, i wrote alot, but i got full marks anyway. haha better than trying to be stingy and writing like so-so amount
and get no good marks, right?
haha ok well, today's report is...
blocked nose, headache, muscle tear here and there (from badminton), dry eyes and sore throat.
haha cant bargain for more!
well tomorrow's like the 4 tests day, im just going to get pwned by the tests.
i guess i wont be running for the x-country this friday.. ugh to think that it was my last chance to get a medal from cross country... sorry class.
i wished to run one ok... but i might as well not run if im going to do so like a joker.
anyway, today geography class was kinda hilarious.
i went up to write my answer on the board. and i didnt do the work yet, so i did on the spot.
my writing went like. 30 degress diagonally upwards.
and everyone was like stop writing la tuck yan! stop!!!
NECK PAIN!!
etc.
and so after im done writing, i almost covered 1/3 of the board with my 6 marks question answer. well, i wrote alot, but i got full marks anyway. haha better than trying to be stingy and writing like so-so amount
and get no good marks, right?
Monday, January 22, 2007
hey you
i know i sound damn gay, striking when your wounds are still being made
but maybe i was being too much of a fool.
O's would be easier, with you by my side. Maybe i didnt see it
if i were tired, at least i would hav a shoulder to rest on
if i were down, at least i'll hav your face stuck next to mine.
if i were unhappy or angry, we could shed the pain together.
if i needed to talk, you could lend me your ears.
when i fail in my interest with history. you could save me
and i havent even gone to the other side.
well i dont know, i'll just see how you'll get back to me
i guess my placed all my laughter on you
and u left and they were stuck, on you
i couldnt hav them
now wont you
draw that smile back
on my face.
but maybe i was being too much of a fool.
O's would be easier, with you by my side. Maybe i didnt see it
if i were tired, at least i would hav a shoulder to rest on
if i were down, at least i'll hav your face stuck next to mine.
if i were unhappy or angry, we could shed the pain together.
if i needed to talk, you could lend me your ears.
when i fail in my interest with history. you could save me
and i havent even gone to the other side.
well i dont know, i'll just see how you'll get back to me
i guess my placed all my laughter on you
and u left and they were stuck, on you
i couldnt hav them
now wont you
draw that smile back
on my face.
the notebook???
hey dad! can i have this notebook that runs on intel core duo
at 1.66ghz, which has 1024mb ram, 256mb radeon graphics card
and isnt too heavy, around abt.. 3.5kg? and has a memory of 120GB
and a DVD writer which can write a double layer DVD..
i mean.. haha aiya, just get it?
lol thats not all
i could do with a new pair of slippers,
a bag for casual use
new clothes to replace those oldies in my closet
a pair of street-wear shoes.
a new velcro-free wallet.
haha thats it la ok. im so "not greedy"
haha ok watever, time to revise for ss test!
lol ok im lucky
well, today wasnt any different, infact i woke up hopelessly late, as i was dumb
and went to attempt sleeping at like... 1250?
haha then in the morning i was refusing to wake up.
but im lucky, i am. i found out that many people share this
depression im experiencing. Joash calls it
the feeling of having no acheivements
jia wei calls it
the compelling suicide feeling.
well, ok its pretty true.
cauz the way i started off this year. i had a huge blow
something i'd never had expected to happen.
the youth camp, well it could've been way better.
my homework? i went through the holidays, and succeeded so little?
heh, talk abt the sense of no acheivements.
just did my camp online homework. heng.. haha i got 10/10
and 9.5/10 phew not bad, probably topped class again.
and its only merely because i listened during lesson...
tomorrow's the ss test, dang its on education and healthcare.
im freaked out and scared like nuts.
and went to attempt sleeping at like... 1250?
haha then in the morning i was refusing to wake up.
but im lucky, i am. i found out that many people share this
depression im experiencing. Joash calls it
the feeling of having no acheivements
jia wei calls it
the compelling suicide feeling.
well, ok its pretty true.
cauz the way i started off this year. i had a huge blow
something i'd never had expected to happen.
the youth camp, well it could've been way better.
my homework? i went through the holidays, and succeeded so little?
heh, talk abt the sense of no acheivements.
just did my camp online homework. heng.. haha i got 10/10
and 9.5/10 phew not bad, probably topped class again.
and its only merely because i listened during lesson...
tomorrow's the ss test, dang its on education and healthcare.
im freaked out and scared like nuts.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
lol. damn it
LOL.. ok damn it it wasnt funny.
uh isaac, next time u ask me to do skit hor... write script hor.
well ok today was... sunday school!
we learnt abt God and that he has a perfect plan for us, which we always succeed in tarnishing
well thats the sad thing, God planned it all, we dont follow cause we are stubborn idiots, we think we can choose not to follow JUST because we dont see how his plan works
just a few days ago, winston was talking abt this thing that he read, it said that we hav ABSOLUTELY NO rights to complain abt God's plan.
well ok, God's plan is confusing, and im still in the midst of experiencing it, which is a privileage, some people just waste their time going against the current
i mean, some days ago, I made a statement, claiming that I wont
regret or wat.
now im struggling not to regret it. cauz seriously..
there's a sweeter side to life,
and we always dont see it.
we follow our emotions too closely
we actually forget that we have a brain
thats capable of thinking.
and we mess things up without thinking.
just so incase you read my blog, im sorry,
things dont hav to go this way
why dont u, grab and turn my face.
and tell me that
everything's ok
just so you know
this hurts me
like hell.
uh isaac, next time u ask me to do skit hor... write script hor.
well ok today was... sunday school!
we learnt abt God and that he has a perfect plan for us, which we always succeed in tarnishing
well thats the sad thing, God planned it all, we dont follow cause we are stubborn idiots, we think we can choose not to follow JUST because we dont see how his plan works
just a few days ago, winston was talking abt this thing that he read, it said that we hav ABSOLUTELY NO rights to complain abt God's plan.
well ok, God's plan is confusing, and im still in the midst of experiencing it, which is a privileage, some people just waste their time going against the current
i mean, some days ago, I made a statement, claiming that I wont
regret or wat.
now im struggling not to regret it. cauz seriously..
there's a sweeter side to life,
and we always dont see it.
we follow our emotions too closely
we actually forget that we have a brain
thats capable of thinking.
and we mess things up without thinking.
just so incase you read my blog, im sorry,
things dont hav to go this way
why dont u, grab and turn my face.
and tell me that
everything's ok
just so you know
this hurts me
like hell.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
looking forwards to the face off.
pull your socks a little higher.
cauz im looking forward to our face-off.
whereas for you, dont die on me, not yet.
mean it when u said that u didnt mean it.
time turner
uh.. that girl
today im abt to talk about someone. she's called gina.
this person is just incredible, though pretty short(sorry!)
she can play captains ball very well, and she is a valued player in our school's netball team.
incredibly, i think i only caught her like 5 or lesser times not smiling.
the way she view things are also incredible... on her blog this came out.
that she was faccing alot of expectations and peer pressure
but she'll OVERCOME it.
much unlike me, i'll just say that im screwed, and really wait to be
screwed.
ok well i guess here's a learning point everybody.
learn from her. mentally, dont bother abt the physical part
haha ok its so early in the morning, maybe i'll go sleep.
again?!
this person is just incredible, though pretty short(sorry!)
she can play captains ball very well, and she is a valued player in our school's netball team.
incredibly, i think i only caught her like 5 or lesser times not smiling.
the way she view things are also incredible... on her blog this came out.
that she was faccing alot of expectations and peer pressure
but she'll OVERCOME it.
much unlike me, i'll just say that im screwed, and really wait to be
screwed.
ok well i guess here's a learning point everybody.
learn from her. mentally, dont bother abt the physical part
haha ok its so early in the morning, maybe i'll go sleep.
again?!
Friday, January 19, 2007
eh
well ok, after confession time, i dont really have much of a
wat we call as mood left.
but yeah, i'll just talk a little abt the class drama.
it was well, ss class. and the teacher stood infront.
he said that we were getting our papers back today.
everyone went. yeahhH!!!
well, except me, cauz i thought that i flunked that paper.
and as the teacher was giving the pieves of paper out
he said, from the top to the bottom. farah, 13.
farah is like some crazy good humans student la... and i was
LIKE Wth!!! im going to die.
and then when the teacher read out joash,12
i exclaimed something like "aiya im going to be the last!"
and jiawei, who was trying to be funny, was actually
competing with me for the last position
so i though, well, i'll just see what could happen.
and surely, at the second last piece of paper,
amos, 2 and i was really, almoost planning to die on the spot.
so my teacher, mr aw callled me and amos to stand.
he asked me. tuckyan explain youself.
so i was like.... im sorry, but i really didnt understand the questions!
and then he said that i should have at least try and think
and see how to answer the question correctly.
then he turned to amos and he said that he suspected that
amos skipped all the ss/hist extra lessons during and the holidays.
and amos blatantly agreed.
so he scolded amos abit more.
and this is where and when the suspicion sets in.
im the last in class, i should be the one getting scolded like anything.
and so amos went up, collected his paper and took his seat.
mr aw looked at me. he asked if i could guess the amount of marks i had.
i said."1? cauz maybe i made a L1 somewhere?"
he said no.
die... "zero?!"
mr aw couldnt take the drama anymore.
17 la!
and i was like OMG i beat farah by 4 marks and the test was like ??/25
ok thats the end of the class frama
and i just wanna say, sorry.
wat we call as mood left.
but yeah, i'll just talk a little abt the class drama.
it was well, ss class. and the teacher stood infront.
he said that we were getting our papers back today.
everyone went. yeahhH!!!
well, except me, cauz i thought that i flunked that paper.
and as the teacher was giving the pieves of paper out
he said, from the top to the bottom. farah, 13.
farah is like some crazy good humans student la... and i was
LIKE Wth!!! im going to die.
and then when the teacher read out joash,12
i exclaimed something like "aiya im going to be the last!"
and jiawei, who was trying to be funny, was actually
competing with me for the last position
so i though, well, i'll just see what could happen.
and surely, at the second last piece of paper,
amos, 2 and i was really, almoost planning to die on the spot.
so my teacher, mr aw callled me and amos to stand.
he asked me. tuckyan explain youself.
so i was like.... im sorry, but i really didnt understand the questions!
and then he said that i should have at least try and think
and see how to answer the question correctly.
then he turned to amos and he said that he suspected that
amos skipped all the ss/hist extra lessons during and the holidays.
and amos blatantly agreed.
so he scolded amos abit more.
and this is where and when the suspicion sets in.
im the last in class, i should be the one getting scolded like anything.
and so amos went up, collected his paper and took his seat.
mr aw looked at me. he asked if i could guess the amount of marks i had.
i said."1? cauz maybe i made a L1 somewhere?"
he said no.
die... "zero?!"
mr aw couldnt take the drama anymore.
17 la!
and i was like OMG i beat farah by 4 marks and the test was like ??/25
ok thats the end of the class frama
and i just wanna say, sorry.
at home
at home retrieving my NCC uniform now... haha today was great!
i did all my homework... and ok i'll blog abt the most exciting thing
when im home after NCC and meeting in church.
its the
class drama.
haha ok anyway, sad to hear that my class decided to get jersey
instead of that shirt which was like quite nicely designed.
lol ok anyway. some one pls start a sms conversation with me
on my phone. the messages are like soooo unused.
well ok now its like
almost time to go.
check if got naruto manga and i'll be on the way to school
till here.
bye' (you, for now)
i did all my homework... and ok i'll blog abt the most exciting thing
when im home after NCC and meeting in church.
its the
class drama.
haha ok anyway, sad to hear that my class decided to get jersey
instead of that shirt which was like quite nicely designed.
lol ok anyway. some one pls start a sms conversation with me
on my phone. the messages are like soooo unused.
well ok now its like
almost time to go.
check if got naruto manga and i'll be on the way to school
till here.
bye' (you, for now)
Thursday, January 18, 2007
i guess we're the ones
God has a perfect plan. he made people in pairs, and flunk every individual all over the globe, all over the face of the earth. i thought i found the matching puzzle. but i was wrong. though maybe i might still be right, for now, im wrong. Puzzles are.. well.. puzzling. this groove that groove, the picture placed on us. watever.
well like i said before. probably the only thing that we can become, from now onwards. is to be better friends, and finally be able to talk to each other properly.
was being perverse and looking at my inbox messages. i read through every single message, i took out the lovely once, and i left the unhappy ones to be deleted.
i only wish to keep the lovely memories, how life was like, before he came in. For u, life has gotten sweeter, for me, its getting more and more bitter. so i guess, this is the last thing im doing, to honour watever we used to hav between us, before i spat this bitterness out from my mouth.
im like typing this to nobody. knowing how well that u dont, and wont hav interest in reading my blog anymore. im just this useless, when i find a person who seems more miserable then me, i feel this sense of responsibility. its just a feeling that, well i hav to do this, i hav to take care of this person. and responsibility grew into fondness, fondness grew into a seeming dependency.
but history had to repeat itself, and we were, not meant to be. You grew so fast, you overshot me. im here, left with no one, dont shed me a tear, dont live in regrets. continue to growing, continue to have fun.
its just like that, theres nothing but sadness that its come to this. we no longer talked like we us ed to be, and dont want to play tug with you as the rope, not anymore. be decisive, love him? stick onto him. dont fly here and there, behave yourself. and i know how much i sound like a
dad here. but yeah. well if thats the way u wanted things, go, cauz im for everything that u are for.
thats that, i've got to put this aside, this is a tribute, to watever we, or i held on dear.
and now, give this post an embrace, carry on with this new page written in your life, and my life. cauz. the only way i can do this, is for my life to be truly without you, or truly with you.
this means no more casual conversations on msn
no more weird and excess smses
boring christmas cards.
i didnt treasure u
i didnt care.
u came in as a substitute
as i knew HER mesaages were rare
i used you, to make me feel loved
i wasnt true. when i wanted to be
it was too late, its my fault
that u couldnt wait
no one has the rights to
control your path.
of course not a jerk
like me
and for me
there's nothing left...
i didnt treasure you
i didnt make a move
i forced u to wait
which was wat u musnt do
dont waste your time
one day these tears will freeze
you, go on
i wont bother setting
the city on fire
just to show you the light
anymore.
im sorry if this makes it feel like
you're losing a friend for the third time.
cauz..
well im sorry. i made u wait.
i didnt treasure u, at all.
well like i said before. probably the only thing that we can become, from now onwards. is to be better friends, and finally be able to talk to each other properly.
was being perverse and looking at my inbox messages. i read through every single message, i took out the lovely once, and i left the unhappy ones to be deleted.
i only wish to keep the lovely memories, how life was like, before he came in. For u, life has gotten sweeter, for me, its getting more and more bitter. so i guess, this is the last thing im doing, to honour watever we used to hav between us, before i spat this bitterness out from my mouth.
im like typing this to nobody. knowing how well that u dont, and wont hav interest in reading my blog anymore. im just this useless, when i find a person who seems more miserable then me, i feel this sense of responsibility. its just a feeling that, well i hav to do this, i hav to take care of this person. and responsibility grew into fondness, fondness grew into a seeming dependency.
but history had to repeat itself, and we were, not meant to be. You grew so fast, you overshot me. im here, left with no one, dont shed me a tear, dont live in regrets. continue to growing, continue to have fun.
its just like that, theres nothing but sadness that its come to this. we no longer talked like we us ed to be, and dont want to play tug with you as the rope, not anymore. be decisive, love him? stick onto him. dont fly here and there, behave yourself. and i know how much i sound like a
dad here. but yeah. well if thats the way u wanted things, go, cauz im for everything that u are for.
thats that, i've got to put this aside, this is a tribute, to watever we, or i held on dear.
and now, give this post an embrace, carry on with this new page written in your life, and my life. cauz. the only way i can do this, is for my life to be truly without you, or truly with you.
this means no more casual conversations on msn
no more weird and excess smses
boring christmas cards.
i didnt treasure u
i didnt care.
u came in as a substitute
as i knew HER mesaages were rare
i used you, to make me feel loved
i wasnt true. when i wanted to be
it was too late, its my fault
that u couldnt wait
no one has the rights to
control your path.
of course not a jerk
like me
and for me
there's nothing left...
i didnt treasure you
i didnt make a move
i forced u to wait
which was wat u musnt do
dont waste your time
one day these tears will freeze
you, go on
i wont bother setting
the city on fire
just to show you the light
anymore.
im sorry if this makes it feel like
you're losing a friend for the third time.
cauz..
well im sorry. i made u wait.
i didnt treasure u, at all.
glass heart
a heart, is like a glass orb. it looks lovely, it can indeed be lovely.
a heart is so attractive, its used as a gift sometimes.
its that attractive, that meaningful
sometimes that heart is rejected. cauz having too many glass orbs, do really tarnish the attractiveness of other extras and add-ons.
but the ethic is. if u dont really know if u want one. reject it from the start.
dont accept it, then throw it skyhigh, so that, surely it'll break into pieces.
i hate to say that im like going to blame you or anything. but maybe, just maybe. you shouldnt hav said those things that u did. its how high i went, that caused the severity of this fall. Its supposed to be the plan, but i cant take this,
take this no more.
and as often as that happens, we, at our own fault, fault at this the most frequently.
its called double standards.
i mean i have been complaining abt this and all. talk abt how this sucks and how that sucks too.
but again, how i've been treated, seems like a clone of how i had treated others.
well yes, kindness boomerangs, ushered kindness comes back to you.
ill behavoir, skeptical thoughts. well wat u do onto others, expect what will be done onto you. this is such a vengeful speech. huh?
well watever. they say that u must pen down your grievences, or else you will
start inventing ways to hurt yourself, which i dont plan to explore in, at all.
i guess this really helps. my life shouldnt be too screwy after im down sprouting
my insider's nonsense.. right?
a heart is so attractive, its used as a gift sometimes.
its that attractive, that meaningful
sometimes that heart is rejected. cauz having too many glass orbs, do really tarnish the attractiveness of other extras and add-ons.
but the ethic is. if u dont really know if u want one. reject it from the start.
dont accept it, then throw it skyhigh, so that, surely it'll break into pieces.
i hate to say that im like going to blame you or anything. but maybe, just maybe. you shouldnt hav said those things that u did. its how high i went, that caused the severity of this fall. Its supposed to be the plan, but i cant take this,
take this no more.
and as often as that happens, we, at our own fault, fault at this the most frequently.
its called double standards.
i mean i have been complaining abt this and all. talk abt how this sucks and how that sucks too.
but again, how i've been treated, seems like a clone of how i had treated others.
well yes, kindness boomerangs, ushered kindness comes back to you.
ill behavoir, skeptical thoughts. well wat u do onto others, expect what will be done onto you. this is such a vengeful speech. huh?
well watever. they say that u must pen down your grievences, or else you will
start inventing ways to hurt yourself, which i dont plan to explore in, at all.
i guess this really helps. my life shouldnt be too screwy after im down sprouting
my insider's nonsense.. right?
damn!!
ughh damn it! i almost made it to running early in the morning today la
well haha anyway, now is like.. media and im blogging away, its illegal
but i have to say this, cauz this isnt the first time i said this... i mean..
fiona said, in year 2005. that though im nice to talk to, im pretty self centered
enshao, in year 2007. claimed that i dont have blood in my vessels, i hav ego fluid
mdm toh, math teacher, today. said that she thinks im very egoistic
and that im self centered.
ahh ok if im that self centered, maybe i should've gone against MGS in the round of
the arena when the motion was "teens nowadays are driven by self centered-ness"
well ok since im so freaking self centered, i would've trashed them, i guess.. haha nah
thats just a part of my jealousy that the school only sent debate people to go for the
arena thingy. damn it why never choose me? (see la ego again)
got into alot of troubles in school recently. maybe its the mess in me, materialising
ah well heck. its media now you know.. i shall like
stop blogging, now
well haha anyway, now is like.. media and im blogging away, its illegal
but i have to say this, cauz this isnt the first time i said this... i mean..
fiona said, in year 2005. that though im nice to talk to, im pretty self centered
enshao, in year 2007. claimed that i dont have blood in my vessels, i hav ego fluid
mdm toh, math teacher, today. said that she thinks im very egoistic
and that im self centered.
ahh ok if im that self centered, maybe i should've gone against MGS in the round of
the arena when the motion was "teens nowadays are driven by self centered-ness"
well ok since im so freaking self centered, i would've trashed them, i guess.. haha nah
thats just a part of my jealousy that the school only sent debate people to go for the
arena thingy. damn it why never choose me? (see la ego again)
got into alot of troubles in school recently. maybe its the mess in me, materialising
ah well heck. its media now you know.. i shall like
stop blogging, now
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
i dont care
well im trying to care for my homework alot more
but then like now, there is something i wish to dont care about
well watever, wish and wish, caring is still the best thing in the
whole world
its love you know.
well i was called for a 1 on 1 session with my math teacher today
apparently she knows that im attituding around in school
and im not behaving myself in terms of homework. this is really
such a shame
well ok watever, i tried doing the e math hw and well it was pretty
easy, looks i like i really should've tried to do something. its not that
bad
ok the bad part now. like i said earlier, i screwed up a matrices law
yes indeed, it caused me to flunk the whole thing
the marks are so atrocious im not going to state them here.
but heres hoping to a full marks retest!
ok thats that, reading times magazine now, its actually
a pretty good read.
but then like now, there is something i wish to dont care about
well watever, wish and wish, caring is still the best thing in the
whole world
its love you know.
well i was called for a 1 on 1 session with my math teacher today
apparently she knows that im attituding around in school
and im not behaving myself in terms of homework. this is really
such a shame
well ok watever, i tried doing the e math hw and well it was pretty
easy, looks i like i really should've tried to do something. its not that
bad
ok the bad part now. like i said earlier, i screwed up a matrices law
yes indeed, it caused me to flunk the whole thing
the marks are so atrocious im not going to state them here.
but heres hoping to a full marks retest!
ok thats that, reading times magazine now, its actually
a pretty good read.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
formula to getting 10 pounds
well, lets analyse my lunch today.
bubble tea, chicken rice, dumpling noodles. hm..
haha yes i almost eat two main dishes every meal
so im sitting here, wondering why fats dont grow.
wondering why the muscles are looking so miserable,
looking like someone went and strangled them.
so constricted, so in pain. save them food.
initiative, metabolic rate. drop just a little.
bubble tea, chicken rice, dumpling noodles. hm..
haha yes i almost eat two main dishes every meal
so im sitting here, wondering why fats dont grow.
wondering why the muscles are looking so miserable,
looking like someone went and strangled them.
so constricted, so in pain. save them food.
initiative, metabolic rate. drop just a little.
when...
when mere prescence overwhelmes existence.
when intricate words fall to casual greetings.
when speeches fall to silence
when caring is crushed by acting.
when effort is but nothing.
when thoughts are worthless
where being passive owns the game
where wits are worth a penny,
but only that penny.
the scheming own honest people dig their graves.
met something this imba before? its worst than sunder in DotA
where the remaining health of both heroes are swapped within 200 range
now wat am i supposed to do, when the opponent's so imba. i let him farm
and i let him get his IMBA 1337 (leet, elite) items. Now show me how im
supposed to deal with this...
instant tide turner.
welcome to the game of ....
well watever.
theres only one thing left to do. and i hate to say this. plan beta's up
alpha failed, beta is here to save the day,
though its not an entirely thing
so what if i started earlier. so what if i knew anything earlier
so what if im going JC
so what if im...
it doesnt ends. everything's at stake, lying helplessly on that table.
choose. its them or that's it
try living your life thinking u can make it without someone that important
try. and come crying running back.
but too bad, the guns' behind the head, the only direction, its the direction
of fire.
no where to run, thats the only way.
wat way?!
when intricate words fall to casual greetings.
when speeches fall to silence
when caring is crushed by acting.
when effort is but nothing.
when thoughts are worthless
where being passive owns the game
where wits are worth a penny,
but only that penny.
the scheming own honest people dig their graves.
met something this imba before? its worst than sunder in DotA
where the remaining health of both heroes are swapped within 200 range
now wat am i supposed to do, when the opponent's so imba. i let him farm
and i let him get his IMBA 1337 (leet, elite) items. Now show me how im
supposed to deal with this...
instant tide turner.
welcome to the game of ....
well watever.
theres only one thing left to do. and i hate to say this. plan beta's up
alpha failed, beta is here to save the day,
though its not an entirely thing
so what if i started earlier. so what if i knew anything earlier
so what if im going JC
so what if im...
it doesnt ends. everything's at stake, lying helplessly on that table.
choose. its them or that's it
try living your life thinking u can make it without someone that important
try. and come crying running back.
but too bad, the guns' behind the head, the only direction, its the direction
of fire.
no where to run, thats the only way.
wat way?!
and to think that.
oh forgive me. im abt to get emo and type nonsense
to think that. everything's gone like this. to think that.
to think that. i didnt treasure anything. to think that.
think that. i didnt do this i didnt do that. i treated everyone
like fools. to think that, im actually complaining now
its just. so painful. taking all this nonsense in a go.
holiday had been a veil, locking my eyes from the truth
everything had been beautiful, for they did not retain the truth
fake and unreal, yet appearing so real. i wish i got stuck then
stuck in the funnel of time.
but the voice calls. its time to move on
so here's to it, slugging everything out, when i better mean it
its a goodbye then. its a goodbye.
till all the chaos has passed, and when the sun is glad to shine again
it'll be a goodbye.
to think that. everything's gone like this. to think that.
to think that. i didnt treasure anything. to think that.
think that. i didnt do this i didnt do that. i treated everyone
like fools. to think that, im actually complaining now
its just. so painful. taking all this nonsense in a go.
holiday had been a veil, locking my eyes from the truth
everything had been beautiful, for they did not retain the truth
fake and unreal, yet appearing so real. i wish i got stuck then
stuck in the funnel of time.
but the voice calls. its time to move on
so here's to it, slugging everything out, when i better mean it
its a goodbye then. its a goodbye.
till all the chaos has passed, and when the sun is glad to shine again
it'll be a goodbye.
yoosh
man. i was looking at my tag board the other day.
ugh no one reads my blog?!!! haha heck la
anyway this blog was set up at first to have people who are like uber free
to come over and read of my "journal"
but the blog was warped. and started to have weird contents.
eh, heck.
ok lets see. today, like any other day, was pretty retarded and boring. ugggh man.
homework for the day is. chinese essay and er...
right geog essay.
shits man. gtg
life has been kinda... boring?
how does it feel like. to know the future?
how does it feel like. to see that
its bleak?
ugh no one reads my blog?!!! haha heck la
anyway this blog was set up at first to have people who are like uber free
to come over and read of my "journal"
but the blog was warped. and started to have weird contents.
eh, heck.
ok lets see. today, like any other day, was pretty retarded and boring. ugggh man.
homework for the day is. chinese essay and er...
right geog essay.
shits man. gtg
life has been kinda... boring?
how does it feel like. to know the future?
how does it feel like. to see that
its bleak?
Monday, January 15, 2007
be honest, be humble
be honest. be humble.
take this like you're taking on the whole world.
be prepared and strike the opportunity.
for now.
take this like. you're taking on the world
haha ok school was like as usual, the teacher jabbling nonsense on the board
the student peering up nervously, wondering and figuring out the web of
"nonsense" which literally flows like the yellow river, planning to down the
students into eternal misery if they dont overcome, if they dont stay afloat.
well.. english was like as usual. plain boring and with loads of people making weird
noises which im involved in. haha so its just that distracting and hardly benefitting
and im really, digging my own grave, shovel by shovel.
yet the more time i waste, the faster i dig my own grave. slacking during lessons is
like a snowballing effect, the ending is actually kinda pretty, but not pretty.
oh wth?! haha forget it. just buy the snowballing part. the rest are freebies.
take this like you're taking on the whole world.
be prepared and strike the opportunity.
for now.
take this like. you're taking on the world
haha ok school was like as usual, the teacher jabbling nonsense on the board
the student peering up nervously, wondering and figuring out the web of
"nonsense" which literally flows like the yellow river, planning to down the
students into eternal misery if they dont overcome, if they dont stay afloat.
well.. english was like as usual. plain boring and with loads of people making weird
noises which im involved in. haha so its just that distracting and hardly benefitting
and im really, digging my own grave, shovel by shovel.
yet the more time i waste, the faster i dig my own grave. slacking during lessons is
like a snowballing effect, the ending is actually kinda pretty, but not pretty.
oh wth?! haha forget it. just buy the snowballing part. the rest are freebies.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
im back
ok this is the candle lighting ceremony. where both parties use their
candle to light a candle in the middle. it symbolises living as ONE.
both parties then snuff out their own candle. Now its living as two
bodies in one./
hello! im back!
actually i felt like uploading a few pictures
but i guess i'll make do with just 2
here goes..
well the sharksfin is just to make you jealous.
haha
Saturday, January 13, 2007
armor of God
this was something i did, when i was in sec2.
where has my spirit gone to man? the enthusiatism?
ahhh well. hope this is an inspiration for everyone.
ahhh well. hope this is an inspiration for everyone.
to wear the armor of God and pick up our cross daily. and then
follow him
weird la
yesterday's meeting.
so we are doing the amazing race thing and the movie thing
hopefully we can actually charge people to watch the movie without
breaking laws. and the amazing race thing. im seriously not sure if
the people in our church will pay such an insane amount of money
just to use a car. we're counting by hundreds here u know
well anyway. the conclusion for yesterday was more meaningful.
but seriously, rabbit. i wished u had told me this kinda stuff more often
and dont use it as the last resort. now i must admit. i still dont know you
too well. Come on such matters are nothing to be shy abt, right rabbit?
i should learn to be more contented already.
thanks
so we are doing the amazing race thing and the movie thing
hopefully we can actually charge people to watch the movie without
breaking laws. and the amazing race thing. im seriously not sure if
the people in our church will pay such an insane amount of money
just to use a car. we're counting by hundreds here u know
well anyway. the conclusion for yesterday was more meaningful.
but seriously, rabbit. i wished u had told me this kinda stuff more often
and dont use it as the last resort. now i must admit. i still dont know you
too well. Come on such matters are nothing to be shy abt, right rabbit?
i should learn to be more contented already.
thanks
Friday, January 12, 2007
heh really
really, im confused. who are my friends? could they like tag on the tagboard?
could they? could you? being my friend is like sentencing yourself to immense
hardships and alot of annoyance.
cauz im just the kinda person who gives people problems.
im confused, i am.
but i finally realised why we place God in our hearts first.
its so that, our lives will never be empty.
ever.
unless we choose to!, but that'll mean that we're complete retards.
could they? could you? being my friend is like sentencing yourself to immense
hardships and alot of annoyance.
cauz im just the kinda person who gives people problems.
im confused, i am.
but i finally realised why we place God in our hearts first.
its so that, our lives will never be empty.
ever.
unless we choose to!, but that'll mean that we're complete retards.
its like that
when we are having too much fun. and we accidently fall into the trap of self reflection. sometimes we just find outselves so actually living in a empty good for almost nothing life.
satisfaction in materialistic vanity. forsaken the importance of a life full of substance.
well this is where u'd end. stuck in this pit with me. blaming anything but myself abt life.
life sucks because of tom. its peters fault that it rained today. its tim's fault that hw was
screwed.
its obviously shaun's fault that the test had to be so unanswerable.
ok.. then wheres my fault?
and when people say. its not your fault. it will not be on that account that it wont be my
fault.
stop going your fault your fault.
just shutup and go to sleep, tuck yan
satisfaction in materialistic vanity. forsaken the importance of a life full of substance.
well this is where u'd end. stuck in this pit with me. blaming anything but myself abt life.
life sucks because of tom. its peters fault that it rained today. its tim's fault that hw was
screwed.
its obviously shaun's fault that the test had to be so unanswerable.
ok.. then wheres my fault?
and when people say. its not your fault. it will not be on that account that it wont be my
fault.
stop going your fault your fault.
just shutup and go to sleep, tuck yan
Thursday, January 11, 2007
conviction
hmph, i still think that i've settled in school. mentally settled? nope
conviction. without the precious conviction, nothing can be done.
commit yourself to what ever you have to do. and you will do it.
pls.
summon it all out already. fight that war, tomorrow, tomorrow's tomorrow.
etc.
it sounds scary, but thats all it does, to sound scary.
conviction. without the precious conviction, nothing can be done.
commit yourself to what ever you have to do. and you will do it.
pls.
summon it all out already. fight that war, tomorrow, tomorrow's tomorrow.
etc.
it sounds scary, but thats all it does, to sound scary.
happy moments= sad moments
reading blogs and reading blogs.
chanced upon those many posts. Where u dont need to ask and you know that the post was done, with a smile spread across the face.
all the thrill all the outdoors. heh i think im begining to feel like shit that im sec4 this year.
its quite boring. its studying and studying. only time to socialise is like during slack lessons or in church only.
isit just myself? or that sec4s are supposed to live like this?
tomorrow's peace settlements test. ugh tests are like.. getting into everyone.
feeling moody, feeling like crap.
anyway. cross country is coming. its like my last chance to get a medal. i guess i'll train on saturday and sunday mornings. its only four more training days till cross country. this is like so ugh. im not in a sports CCA and NCC didnt hav PT the last training.
heck, this medal i must win. even if its the last position for all the medalists.
watch me win!
this post is like written in such a so siaaannnnnnn mood. i realised
chanced upon those many posts. Where u dont need to ask and you know that the post was done, with a smile spread across the face.
all the thrill all the outdoors. heh i think im begining to feel like shit that im sec4 this year.
its quite boring. its studying and studying. only time to socialise is like during slack lessons or in church only.
isit just myself? or that sec4s are supposed to live like this?
tomorrow's peace settlements test. ugh tests are like.. getting into everyone.
feeling moody, feeling like crap.
anyway. cross country is coming. its like my last chance to get a medal. i guess i'll train on saturday and sunday mornings. its only four more training days till cross country. this is like so ugh. im not in a sports CCA and NCC didnt hav PT the last training.
heck, this medal i must win. even if its the last position for all the medalists.
watch me win!
this post is like written in such a so siaaannnnnnn mood. i realised
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
tug of war
when i was a young idiot, my mum used to tell me this when ever i mention tug-of-war.
limbs do come off during official competitions.
right man mum. i didnt believe that. untill i played tug of war
myself
limbs didnt come off, but it sure hurts like nuts.
no, i think you dont know wat tug of war im talking abt
i''ve have this sinking feeling that the physics teacher is about to make me
her pet. i cant stand it, she just gives me too much chance and everything i say
she has to make a comment that is like.. "thats correct, it shows that people do think"
"tell that to the whole class..." its like omg man i hate being a teacher's pet
but im not going to get myself booked by showing some rubbish behaviour in class
or something to get out of her good books.
well ok watever, havent been having english lessons for ages! its like. i dunno
felt like as if there isnt even such a period during school
ah ok heck. now i need to go complete my Amath stuff.
do some E-homework and then get prepared to go do zhu chang later in church
zhu chang means backup singers. thats that!
limbs do come off during official competitions.
right man mum. i didnt believe that. untill i played tug of war
myself
limbs didnt come off, but it sure hurts like nuts.
no, i think you dont know wat tug of war im talking abt
i''ve have this sinking feeling that the physics teacher is about to make me
her pet. i cant stand it, she just gives me too much chance and everything i say
she has to make a comment that is like.. "thats correct, it shows that people do think"
"tell that to the whole class..." its like omg man i hate being a teacher's pet
but im not going to get myself booked by showing some rubbish behaviour in class
or something to get out of her good books.
well ok watever, havent been having english lessons for ages! its like. i dunno
felt like as if there isnt even such a period during school
ah ok heck. now i need to go complete my Amath stuff.
do some E-homework and then get prepared to go do zhu chang later in church
zhu chang means backup singers. thats that!
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
finally, i've got used to school
and i think i can say this.
random fireball thing i always draw, but its with markers
im finally fitting into school! woot.
haha there's not much abt that itself, so i guess i shall blog abt
the study thing that im doing with mence. OK yesterday was the first one i ever did
but it wasnt counted cauz we were distracted, and we only studied for like 1 and half hours
which is like no big deal and therefore not counted.
well not say like as if today was counted either
we borrowed KZS's hw to fill in on the parts we didnt know how to do
and mence you know im lying super hard by saying that, but its true since we're hopeless
in math.
ok lookie. we did our little copying affair, so we proceeded to do some other stuff
i spy... i spied a whiteboard. and soon we were like drawing all over it...
frost nova. heh its drawn by markers, clap damnit
random fireball thing i always draw, but its with markers
clap!
clemence's spastic drawings. idiot
the best part, pushing the blame to mi. Lim
miss lim, our dear beloved principal
well that sums it. the cleaner came in
and she didnt erase the board, i hope we dont get screwed tomorrow
haha for no erasing the board after use the learn@fairfield
haha lol why the heck for the hyperlink man...
ok thats that, ultra tired, do some online assignments
and bed will be where i call home, at home
Monday, January 08, 2007
pushed
pushed around.
halt to a stop. slap your faces get them off
how am i to serve Got, when resentment
is all i've got.
everyone left, 1 by 1, standing alone. this emptiness i feel
proves that i never really did make up myself.
its God and me. We're holding hands.
im scared, Lord pls calm the storms in my heart.
galilee was bigger, was fiercer.
surely u could do something to this unceasing turbulence
enough is enough. thats that. is thats that.
resent no more. serve you whole heartedly.
let everyone hav their way. no one knows anyone better than they themselves
uneeded attempt to seize control of lives.
to attempt to weave the broken.
teach me how to deal with things. that i make sure i dont
get left with nothing. anymore.
thats it, hold the reins of those tears,
dry them. for tomorrow will be a journey
all over again.
halt to a stop. slap your faces get them off
how am i to serve Got, when resentment
is all i've got.
everyone left, 1 by 1, standing alone. this emptiness i feel
proves that i never really did make up myself.
its God and me. We're holding hands.
im scared, Lord pls calm the storms in my heart.
galilee was bigger, was fiercer.
surely u could do something to this unceasing turbulence
enough is enough. thats that. is thats that.
resent no more. serve you whole heartedly.
let everyone hav their way. no one knows anyone better than they themselves
uneeded attempt to seize control of lives.
to attempt to weave the broken.
teach me how to deal with things. that i make sure i dont
get left with nothing. anymore.
thats it, hold the reins of those tears,
dry them. for tomorrow will be a journey
all over again.
i hate being mean
i hate being mean. really.
dont force me to change that lovely perception. really. steer out of my way
claim watever u want. im used to it. in the end left with nothing
take take take it all
and dont be left with everything but crushed on the floor.
btw, copying to spite you is a highly original idea.
and i wont be blogging abt pestsquids anymore.
cauz i dont hav the time for anyone.
not at all.
dont force me to change that lovely perception. really. steer out of my way
claim watever u want. im used to it. in the end left with nothing
take take take it all
and dont be left with everything but crushed on the floor.
btw, copying to spite you is a highly original idea.
and i wont be blogging abt pestsquids anymore.
cauz i dont hav the time for anyone.
not at all.
bloggin is for crap
well heh i guess bloggin is really for crappy unknown good for nothing reasons.
its obvious now.
well mr sunshine. watch your tongue man. haha u noe sometimes its really a pitty how u dont see
that its not worth. posting a post over me.
infact u pretend like you do. but u actually dont.
so if my blog really hurts anyone's eye. really dont see it.
self-torture is always the first step to insanity. i havent crossed your path.
dont try crossing mine. cauz really thats just too troublesome for someone who actually
wants to score for his O's and stuff. and who aims to get into a JC.
they say that people who enter the poly has great foresight.
hell yeah true.
some enter because of their lack of foresight. hah
well like i said, dont honour me by blogging abt me blogging.
thats just too sad!
its like trying to beat a debator at his game. uh huh. no way
infact i realise how hypocritical i am being here. i never wanted to cross your pat.h
maybe u could try walking out of which ever part of my path u just threaded on.
or biked on.. lol
this road i walk on, its a real man's road. the blog is my good friend whom i confide in.
its sounds like nonsense, cauz no one, unless its someone who knows me like the
back of his hand would understand this nonsense.
i hate being mean. and i actually do hate talking.
dont give me something to comment abt, give me a break.
or i'll hav to find that break in you.
its obvious now.
well mr sunshine. watch your tongue man. haha u noe sometimes its really a pitty how u dont see
that its not worth. posting a post over me.
infact u pretend like you do. but u actually dont.
so if my blog really hurts anyone's eye. really dont see it.
self-torture is always the first step to insanity. i havent crossed your path.
dont try crossing mine. cauz really thats just too troublesome for someone who actually
wants to score for his O's and stuff. and who aims to get into a JC.
they say that people who enter the poly has great foresight.
hell yeah true.
some enter because of their lack of foresight. hah
well like i said, dont honour me by blogging abt me blogging.
thats just too sad!
its like trying to beat a debator at his game. uh huh. no way
infact i realise how hypocritical i am being here. i never wanted to cross your pat.h
maybe u could try walking out of which ever part of my path u just threaded on.
or biked on.. lol
this road i walk on, its a real man's road. the blog is my good friend whom i confide in.
its sounds like nonsense, cauz no one, unless its someone who knows me like the
back of his hand would understand this nonsense.
i hate being mean. and i actually do hate talking.
dont give me something to comment abt, give me a break.
or i'll hav to find that break in you.
this is a phantasm?
the phantasms of life, fills life.
its everywhere, so confusing. teaches us how to lie.
to ourselves, to others.
its everwhere, its scary, life's almost like a phantasm.
i think im studying, but im wasting my time
i THOUGHT i was doing the right thing, but i wasted more than just time
i think i could get past this. but theres no point dreaming in life.
i thought i didnt hav to hand in A and E math holiday hw
but now they're hounding after my life.
sanity sits on a string. gladly the string isnt a string,
its a rope. its thick. but sanity's sitting on it.
he laughs a threatens to throw himself over. no no no no.
shackle him to the rope. let this mind be still.
its everywhere, so confusing. teaches us how to lie.
to ourselves, to others.
its everwhere, its scary, life's almost like a phantasm.
i think im studying, but im wasting my time
i THOUGHT i was doing the right thing, but i wasted more than just time
i think i could get past this. but theres no point dreaming in life.
i thought i didnt hav to hand in A and E math holiday hw
but now they're hounding after my life.
sanity sits on a string. gladly the string isnt a string,
its a rope. its thick. but sanity's sitting on it.
he laughs a threatens to throw himself over. no no no no.
shackle him to the rope. let this mind be still.
heh
so thats it.the river's disappeared.
i dropped im crushed, pulverized to bits.
not a drop of sympathy, no way. dont cry me a river.
it appears that thats it. it was my fault theres no one else to blame.
be smiling be happy. you've won smart alek.
if only i took those binoculars out. to find out that the river was merely..
a few feets from the foot of this gigantic clift.
if only i bothered. if only i cared.
now thats it. plan alpha is gone. beta isnt coming up.
at this rate. i wont reach the river. i wont.
would a gentle breeze whom with i've got no acquaintance
come and blow me that inch more.
wish and wish. just continue wishing and dreaming on.
i dropped im crushed, pulverized to bits.
not a drop of sympathy, no way. dont cry me a river.
it appears that thats it. it was my fault theres no one else to blame.
be smiling be happy. you've won smart alek.
if only i took those binoculars out. to find out that the river was merely..
a few feets from the foot of this gigantic clift.
if only i bothered. if only i cared.
now thats it. plan alpha is gone. beta isnt coming up.
at this rate. i wont reach the river. i wont.
would a gentle breeze whom with i've got no acquaintance
come and blow me that inch more.
wish and wish. just continue wishing and dreaming on.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
this is nonsense
i used to like to say this "nonsense!"
but nonsense has played a part as "sense" in our lives nowadays
nonsense has started to make sense
when its ok to be unreasonable. when not doing crimes, is a crime.
when u try to help, things screw up for you.
God im sorry, i havent been commiting my plans to you.
when u are the exact person who should be listenning, i turned my face away
away from your ears i spoke. and i complained that u didnt hear
shake me up and slap me, i hav been a naughty boy.
wake me up. cauz its time to know that you love me.
thats that cauz thats all i need. really. tell me that, engrave that in me.
this year's gonna be tough. and there are tougher years to come.
im scared. im really scared. i've been running away for too long.
now i need to run back. its tougher. thats why God u have to help me.
Help me at all times. Be the one who supports me, who holds my back.
who gives me that thumbs up. who is smiling are approval.
hold my path. bend it to you. Keep your promises, that u would make sure
that as long as i am close to you, Lord would u realise my plans.
grant me the sleep i need. and i strength to overcome.
to create new grounds, to reclaim the lost and found.
thats that. i'm tired i dead.
give me the rest, that i need. take care of my needs.
i'll rest in your hands.
but nonsense has played a part as "sense" in our lives nowadays
nonsense has started to make sense
when its ok to be unreasonable. when not doing crimes, is a crime.
when u try to help, things screw up for you.
God im sorry, i havent been commiting my plans to you.
when u are the exact person who should be listenning, i turned my face away
away from your ears i spoke. and i complained that u didnt hear
shake me up and slap me, i hav been a naughty boy.
wake me up. cauz its time to know that you love me.
thats that cauz thats all i need. really. tell me that, engrave that in me.
this year's gonna be tough. and there are tougher years to come.
im scared. im really scared. i've been running away for too long.
now i need to run back. its tougher. thats why God u have to help me.
Help me at all times. Be the one who supports me, who holds my back.
who gives me that thumbs up. who is smiling are approval.
hold my path. bend it to you. Keep your promises, that u would make sure
that as long as i am close to you, Lord would u realise my plans.
grant me the sleep i need. and i strength to overcome.
to create new grounds, to reclaim the lost and found.
thats that. i'm tired i dead.
give me the rest, that i need. take care of my needs.
i'll rest in your hands.
i finally got out! wth
i finally got out of that feeling.
that feeling had arms. it held on to me tight.
damn you, "feeling" i dont want you
why are u clutching my legs like that?
why do u want me in misery?
give me back the strength you had
siphoned from me. and that hope
you sucked away. screw u, live your own life.
and get out of my life. Before u leave, return me
the stuff rightfully mine.
and dont u dare to ever come back.
damn you. get out
now
ok screw now that that feeling is back, seriously
i need to find the roots of this problems. and excavate it
i need to change the matter entirely. this problem's a big problem
for the time being. i'll start with i problem i know. heh but this problem
isnt really a problem. its a person. both words starts with P, yet bore
no connection.
whatever, i need to study, problems away, get out of me.
and the hair pls grow back. quickly! haha
that feeling had arms. it held on to me tight.
damn you, "feeling" i dont want you
why are u clutching my legs like that?
why do u want me in misery?
give me back the strength you had
siphoned from me. and that hope
you sucked away. screw u, live your own life.
and get out of my life. Before u leave, return me
the stuff rightfully mine.
and dont u dare to ever come back.
damn you. get out
now
ok screw now that that feeling is back, seriously
i need to find the roots of this problems. and excavate it
i need to change the matter entirely. this problem's a big problem
for the time being. i'll start with i problem i know. heh but this problem
isnt really a problem. its a person. both words starts with P, yet bore
no connection.
whatever, i need to study, problems away, get out of me.
and the hair pls grow back. quickly! haha
nothing
today was like... church. haha ok wat am i supposed to say besides that?
after church went to BK holland V with the bunch of guys, seriously i still
feel alittle misfit among them, i shouldnt be there i cant quite fit in.
well, their generation would've kinda died frm tuanqi by next year.
thats sad to hear, i dont mix alot with them, but they're fun to mix with. heh
well as usual ck will just pretend like he had some thing important to tell me.
then after revealing a teeny bit he'll go, actually you obviously noe already.
then i'll just say i dont cauz i really dont.
and he'll go "but i think this is going to hurt you alot" like always i guess
everything he says is going to "hurt" me, whether it actually will or not.
it'll just be "hurt"-ful
so he'll just stop there, maybe this time it'll really hurt, maybe this time it might still not hurt.
watever it is, he stopped there, the suspense hanged. and after typing all this crap on the blog, the suspense would just fade and go.
really, the moral of the story is. we should tell the whole story.
suspense-for-fun is a sucky feeling. lol
well watever, its time to do those boring pieces of jian baos,
isnt it?
after church went to BK holland V with the bunch of guys, seriously i still
feel alittle misfit among them, i shouldnt be there i cant quite fit in.
well, their generation would've kinda died frm tuanqi by next year.
thats sad to hear, i dont mix alot with them, but they're fun to mix with. heh
well as usual ck will just pretend like he had some thing important to tell me.
then after revealing a teeny bit he'll go, actually you obviously noe already.
then i'll just say i dont cauz i really dont.
and he'll go "but i think this is going to hurt you alot" like always i guess
everything he says is going to "hurt" me, whether it actually will or not.
it'll just be "hurt"-ful
so he'll just stop there, maybe this time it'll really hurt, maybe this time it might still not hurt.
watever it is, he stopped there, the suspense hanged. and after typing all this crap on the blog, the suspense would just fade and go.
really, the moral of the story is. we should tell the whole story.
suspense-for-fun is a sucky feeling. lol
well watever, its time to do those boring pieces of jian baos,
isnt it?
Saturday, January 06, 2007
i've been a jerk today
well, i did plan on stopping being emo, and getting back into schooling mood.
but i did something really nasty today.
well sometimes i really wonder. if im doing the right things, if im behaving
correctly, now i think i know. im not.
well, then if thats it, im caught in the middle of a round-about.
i keep walking some way... but i'll end up at the same place anyway
im caught, im stunned by my misbehave, im sorry
im speechless. No one likes to be mistaken. and there i was, acting like
i owned the whole world, im un mistaken-able, whereas everyone else
WERE free to abuse in anyway i wanted.
look at yourself tuckyan.
tell me.
your worth.
but i did something really nasty today.
well sometimes i really wonder. if im doing the right things, if im behaving
correctly, now i think i know. im not.
well, then if thats it, im caught in the middle of a round-about.
i keep walking some way... but i'll end up at the same place anyway
im caught, im stunned by my misbehave, im sorry
im speechless. No one likes to be mistaken. and there i was, acting like
i owned the whole world, im un mistaken-able, whereas everyone else
WERE free to abuse in anyway i wanted.
look at yourself tuckyan.
tell me.
your worth.
when the load of 3 gets too heavy for the rope to take. the last climber cuts himself off the rope. in turn, saving two
ever since the idiot like you climbed onto the rope, i had slowly climbed to the bottom.
whatever i held onto, i had already let go.
u hav this year to climb onto the top, and dont forget your partner, the first climber.
if u dont make it to the top... thats it, i'll scale the clift just to pull you off the rope. for making my sacrifice worth nothing.'
i've erased myself off the picture i had painted. whether u could paint yourself on it, thats your own problem.
so long, im going to my JC.
Sec4 life is just going to get tough. the teachers are hinting all over that the first few days i went through were nothing compared to the way sec4's supposed to run.
im like. i get the hint, im going to die.
not if i've still got my friends!
the problem is, are they the correct type of friends?
cut off my hair, dropped those hopelessness
back on my feet, its time to kick exams's ass.
before i go kick his. i just hope that im not pushing anything
i just hope that, my teachers will be friendly
i hope that church wont crush me
i just hope that i'll change.
i hope that God would bless me in my ways.
i'll just pray...
im sly, im scheming. i scheme a perfect plan
he's sly, he schemes, he schemes everyday.
who's sly, whos the scheming one?
ever since the idiot like you climbed onto the rope, i had slowly climbed to the bottom.
whatever i held onto, i had already let go.
u hav this year to climb onto the top, and dont forget your partner, the first climber.
if u dont make it to the top... thats it, i'll scale the clift just to pull you off the rope. for making my sacrifice worth nothing.'
i've erased myself off the picture i had painted. whether u could paint yourself on it, thats your own problem.
so long, im going to my JC.
Sec4 life is just going to get tough. the teachers are hinting all over that the first few days i went through were nothing compared to the way sec4's supposed to run.
im like. i get the hint, im going to die.
not if i've still got my friends!
the problem is, are they the correct type of friends?
cut off my hair, dropped those hopelessness
back on my feet, its time to kick exams's ass.
before i go kick his. i just hope that im not pushing anything
i just hope that, my teachers will be friendly
i hope that church wont crush me
i just hope that i'll change.
i hope that God would bless me in my ways.
i'll just pray...
im sly, im scheming. i scheme a perfect plan
he's sly, he schemes, he schemes everyday.
who's sly, whos the scheming one?
Thursday, January 04, 2007
dunno
its lame, since my blog started a long time ago,
i realised that i've only blogged 70+ times, hhow embarassing
to be honest....
yesterday wasnt the first day of school, today is.
as usual, my hw were like all screwed and my teacher, especially geog teacher,
were all freaking upset and disappointed, to such an extent its like as if this is the
first time i didnt do my hw, ok that's no excuse but...
then during geog, it was like embarassment time.
kena scolded, and after lesson i had to stay back to one-on-one the teacher.
she was telling me abt how she thinks that im not doing work because i think im like the best and therefore assume that i dont need to do any homework to continue owning the class in geog, which is true, but the reason why i didnt do the hw, streams frm many reasons, of which all amounts to absolute nothing. haha which meant that, there is never a reason good enough to allow anyone to skip hw...
thats the lesson learnt, for me.
after that was like a hell boring talk in the hall abt our CCA points, dang, they noe that i'd skip my CCA's if they didnt enforce such rules in time.
after that was the skit practice with red cross.
luke didnt come and i was the only NCC cadet there. they were like thank you thank you
and it was so ultra embarassing.
well, here's my role, tell me that its boring and sucky.. hah
kidnap ruth, take a gun and shoot everybody.. wow?! haha nonsensical role, but im doing something anyway, should be contented. its a big role you noe...
tomorrow the kiddos are going to be signing up for their CCAs, lets just hope that the NCC booth will be improved frm last year, we seriously need to do this better
ugh watever, heres the ending to my emo spree mabel
belonged, to the words of this song.
i tried to be strong for her,
tried not to be wrong for her...
but she must not wait for me,
anymore, anymore...
when did i say all those things before?
i was sure... that she was the one...
my gift is my curse.
for now.
i realised that i've only blogged 70+ times, hhow embarassing
to be honest....
yesterday wasnt the first day of school, today is.
as usual, my hw were like all screwed and my teacher, especially geog teacher,
were all freaking upset and disappointed, to such an extent its like as if this is the
first time i didnt do my hw, ok that's no excuse but...
then during geog, it was like embarassment time.
kena scolded, and after lesson i had to stay back to one-on-one the teacher.
she was telling me abt how she thinks that im not doing work because i think im like the best and therefore assume that i dont need to do any homework to continue owning the class in geog, which is true, but the reason why i didnt do the hw, streams frm many reasons, of which all amounts to absolute nothing. haha which meant that, there is never a reason good enough to allow anyone to skip hw...
thats the lesson learnt, for me.
after that was like a hell boring talk in the hall abt our CCA points, dang, they noe that i'd skip my CCA's if they didnt enforce such rules in time.
after that was the skit practice with red cross.
luke didnt come and i was the only NCC cadet there. they were like thank you thank you
and it was so ultra embarassing.
well, here's my role, tell me that its boring and sucky.. hah
kidnap ruth, take a gun and shoot everybody.. wow?! haha nonsensical role, but im doing something anyway, should be contented. its a big role you noe...
tomorrow the kiddos are going to be signing up for their CCAs, lets just hope that the NCC booth will be improved frm last year, we seriously need to do this better
ugh watever, heres the ending to my emo spree mabel
belonged, to the words of this song.
i tried to be strong for her,
tried not to be wrong for her...
but she must not wait for me,
anymore, anymore...
when did i say all those things before?
i was sure... that she was the one...
my gift is my curse.
for now.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
friends
im stuck in this dark room, i locked the door
the darkness is frightenning, but i dont care
the world demands me to spend this in loneliness.
so im here, i wanted to talk, but no one had the time
blinded by the bustling streets, we're dazed zombies
so im here, sitting in the darkest corner.
im here, im alone. God said he'd come, he's here
but i couldnt see him. i couldnt feel him.
im alone. im buried in self-pity
i cant breathe, i cant see
im wallowing
in self pity.
snap! a beam of light shone.
there was jesus, his face an unexplainable
wake up wake up, he says
i guess i'll do so, this is his way.
God be honest, play this game with me
teach me the strategy, move my hand
my will is weak, move my hand. I cant do it
but u can
really, treasure your friends...
i just read mab's blog, my friends dont do that for me
but i guess they can be great in their own ways..
come on, pick me up, pick me up
the darkness is frightenning, but i dont care
the world demands me to spend this in loneliness.
so im here, i wanted to talk, but no one had the time
blinded by the bustling streets, we're dazed zombies
so im here, sitting in the darkest corner.
im here, im alone. God said he'd come, he's here
but i couldnt see him. i couldnt feel him.
im alone. im buried in self-pity
i cant breathe, i cant see
im wallowing
in self pity.
snap! a beam of light shone.
there was jesus, his face an unexplainable
wake up wake up, he says
i guess i'll do so, this is his way.
God be honest, play this game with me
teach me the strategy, move my hand
my will is weak, move my hand. I cant do it
but u can
really, treasure your friends...
i just read mab's blog, my friends dont do that for me
but i guess they can be great in their own ways..
come on, pick me up, pick me up
this is your life
blogging seems to hav lost its gist to me
so long blog, i guess i'll dig u up, sometime later in my life, when there is something good to write
when i dont use you, to type this nonsensesical make no sense rantings
im sorry i didnt choose this to be
its not my fault dear blog.
but then again, its not ANYBODY's fault.
it just worked like this, i've got nothing to say. yet i am saying something now.
im jealous abt everything, im feeling so empty.
this year started like wth.
and though so many people tried to knock that feeling off me
its still wth for me, cauz
since it left and i was alone. the lights lost their shine
and the stars hav fallen. the walls are pale
and the faces are fierce. the interesting turned annoying.
a beautiful are now mere nothing
the dust has became everything. the sky has lost it shine,
the sun has hid her face. just like... how you did yours.
the phone is a jarring, the sweet sound drowned.
the good has gone, the bad's around.
its this lonely, on this path leading who-noes where
is just this lonely corridoor. its darkness like all.
walked here for years, till the day u came.
now im walking it again
like things never changed.
if u could, turn this world upside down, bring me back
to life.
restore the colours in our eyes, the warmth that's inside.
tell me show me, slap me if u must, wake me up, before this
harshness ends.
wake me up...
NOW
so long blog, i guess i'll dig u up, sometime later in my life, when there is something good to write
when i dont use you, to type this nonsensesical make no sense rantings
im sorry i didnt choose this to be
its not my fault dear blog.
but then again, its not ANYBODY's fault.
it just worked like this, i've got nothing to say. yet i am saying something now.
im jealous abt everything, im feeling so empty.
this year started like wth.
and though so many people tried to knock that feeling off me
its still wth for me, cauz
since it left and i was alone. the lights lost their shine
and the stars hav fallen. the walls are pale
and the faces are fierce. the interesting turned annoying.
a beautiful are now mere nothing
the dust has became everything. the sky has lost it shine,
the sun has hid her face. just like... how you did yours.
the phone is a jarring, the sweet sound drowned.
the good has gone, the bad's around.
its this lonely, on this path leading who-noes where
is just this lonely corridoor. its darkness like all.
walked here for years, till the day u came.
now im walking it again
like things never changed.
if u could, turn this world upside down, bring me back
to life.
restore the colours in our eyes, the warmth that's inside.
tell me show me, slap me if u must, wake me up, before this
harshness ends.
wake me up...
NOW
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
i dont even noe why im saying this
this is a puny prayer for the blogger
i pray that he wont be such a fool, casting mental tricks on others
using his blog as a weapon, to shoot those who're already down
to not use it intentionally unintentionally
to not write emo stuff so that girls who see them give this blogger
concern he actually doesnt need.
to write stuff the blogger doesnt mean, to write stuff that are
altered for the eyes of others, at that time, sacrificing
the genuinity which comes from through the blogger's own eyes
the blog shall be free from deceit, scams
the blog will not be used to fish for girl friends
or to make anyone awe at the blogger's "state"
the blog will be used to hold the blogger's feelings
it shall only contain the purest and most honest content
it will not boast abt nonsense, will not make a subject of thin air
will not claim to restore what was never stolen
will not send pigs flying, or cows over the moon.
any breakage of this rules, will be harshly reflected
on the tags, break the blogger's bones if u must
at least he'd learn, and not live his life and a
filthy faker.
it'll be like a honest blogger's prayer
just like this i wrote
- the blogger's creed
copy if u want, credits goes to LAU TUCK YAN
i pray that he wont be such a fool, casting mental tricks on others
using his blog as a weapon, to shoot those who're already down
to not use it intentionally unintentionally
to not write emo stuff so that girls who see them give this blogger
concern he actually doesnt need.
to write stuff the blogger doesnt mean, to write stuff that are
altered for the eyes of others, at that time, sacrificing
the genuinity which comes from through the blogger's own eyes
the blog shall be free from deceit, scams
the blog will not be used to fish for girl friends
or to make anyone awe at the blogger's "state"
the blog will be used to hold the blogger's feelings
it shall only contain the purest and most honest content
it will not boast abt nonsense, will not make a subject of thin air
will not claim to restore what was never stolen
will not send pigs flying, or cows over the moon.
any breakage of this rules, will be harshly reflected
on the tags, break the blogger's bones if u must
at least he'd learn, and not live his life and a
filthy faker.
it'll be like a honest blogger's prayer
just like this i wrote
- the blogger's creed
copy if u want, credits goes to LAU TUCK YAN
nothing's up
ok im blogging like an idiot again, when im obviously not supposed to.
well theres nothing mucch todo on this miserable morning except to finish up a bowl of green beans, add nick in my links andd yep isnt that all?
well moving onto hw again, this is the last lap, lets do it, seriously and throughly.
well this is such a short post that it ends right here.
cauz so many things hav lost their purpose
since i stepped out of your life.
but i'll be keeping my promises
and stay sane, duh?!
well theres nothing mucch todo on this miserable morning except to finish up a bowl of green beans, add nick in my links andd yep isnt that all?
well moving onto hw again, this is the last lap, lets do it, seriously and throughly.
well this is such a short post that it ends right here.
cauz so many things hav lost their purpose
since i stepped out of your life.
but i'll be keeping my promises
and stay sane, duh?!
Monday, January 01, 2007
its new year.
its new year... but my response is...
hm.. yes so?
its new year, nothings new, things are screwed, the year came to a bad end, the year starts off with me still in a shit load of work and things to take care of.
im in ck's hse now, im almost alone in the room. im feeling sad. im not feeliing great.
he beat me to it, thats what he is capable of.
i guess thats what he can offer, thats what he can beat me in
its not up to me anymore, he can give it to you instantly
he can walk you up your hse. you wont be bored to hell
somehow he beat me to it. im sitting down on this chair, hopelessly useless
its been nice knowing wat and wat, but then its faded to a so wat
i really dont noe wat to do... WWJD seems to piss me off... im sorry abt this God,
but u do noe why sometimes we feel like... we just dont want to do it your way anymore..
God im scared and scarred when im typing this... i dont noe why im typing this, i dont noe why
im saying all this stuff... im confused running in this piece of flat land, no details no features.
lost without the compass, Lord as a pray, draw me the way...
tomorrow is going to be plain homework rushing.. im i dunno... i just hope that i dont be gay and be so useless i cant even do that, seriously, winston is behind me, he sounds so anxious and sad and watnot.... really, i shouldnt be complaining when he seems to be soo much sadder at the background...
this is seriously. the most screwed up year end i had, though its the only time i did this celebrating thing... seriously God...
be my compass
hm.. yes so?
its new year, nothings new, things are screwed, the year came to a bad end, the year starts off with me still in a shit load of work and things to take care of.
im in ck's hse now, im almost alone in the room. im feeling sad. im not feeliing great.
he beat me to it, thats what he is capable of.
i guess thats what he can offer, thats what he can beat me in
its not up to me anymore, he can give it to you instantly
he can walk you up your hse. you wont be bored to hell
somehow he beat me to it. im sitting down on this chair, hopelessly useless
its been nice knowing wat and wat, but then its faded to a so wat
i really dont noe wat to do... WWJD seems to piss me off... im sorry abt this God,
but u do noe why sometimes we feel like... we just dont want to do it your way anymore..
God im scared and scarred when im typing this... i dont noe why im typing this, i dont noe why
im saying all this stuff... im confused running in this piece of flat land, no details no features.
lost without the compass, Lord as a pray, draw me the way...
tomorrow is going to be plain homework rushing.. im i dunno... i just hope that i dont be gay and be so useless i cant even do that, seriously, winston is behind me, he sounds so anxious and sad and watnot.... really, i shouldnt be complaining when he seems to be soo much sadder at the background...
this is seriously. the most screwed up year end i had, though its the only time i did this celebrating thing... seriously God...
be my compass
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