and even though i thought i had it all under control
i cant change the way i feel in time

everything slowly wastes away
because i cant leave you behind.

and even though it's pleasure and pain
though it's like tears in the rain
i know my just place to be

its that of surrender, not to you or to me
but to the one who forever's between

but still i pray, you come to this side
in peace, love and mercy forever reside
i once wanted but my reasons were wrong

now i pray for this will to be strong.

christmas isn't christmas
till it happens in your heart
somewhere deep inside you
is where christmas really starts


so give your heart to jesus
you'll discover when you do

that it's christmas, really christmas
for you.

you know how we rarely find ourselves in a genuine decision making position
that when we are finally there, we see the decision making as being so precious
carefully, gently, naively, cautiously taking our time with one when it comes
and in our caution to not funk it up
the event comes and goes.

and all that is left is this confused little boy
who's left with all his woes