shawn

today A math lesson was sianned to the core.
so i was talking to shawn. he was telling me abt how life sucks
which i think im quite good at now.
so we were just talking and talking
suddenly he asked me
how do you tell if someone is a hypocrite?
so i was like eh? ask for wat
and i unloaded everything i learnt during dom7 camp on him
so he went. ok wait, a pastor can be hypocritical la
and i did a loud EH!
and he change the word to the one i just thought him
double standards
we as humans, live our lives through double standards.
we fake our pro-ness, and we make others do wat we cant.
its pretty sad.
then we talked abt how teachers think they know the students
when the teachers claim that we dont do hw, they think they know
that its because we're gay, and we pon homework for fun.
thats how untrue.
teachers ask, wat do you do when you hav free time?
they find it amusing when i say that i think whenever im free
( which is quite a curse, right mabel?)
they think that thinking is foolish as it changes nothing
but they've ignored the fact that, thinking is inevitable
and its intense, its actually hard work.
wat do they know, they who spend their time not thinking
how would they know how it feels like, to be able to think
and unable to do
how would they understand, the inability to do work
when most of them are results of hard work.
its a shame teachers, that you all think that you understand
when all this "understanding" leads to more mis-understanding.
wats this, this isnt helping us, this weighs us down.
if only you teachers read my blog, life for youths..
its change, adapt or resigned, dont be our burden.
dont throw that worthless out-of-point compassion on us
when you only need that bit of understanding.
respect my face, dont claim that its arrogant.
mind your tongue, be as professional as you should be.
im done ranting, are you going to change?
no no,
cauz no one ever told you such things in your face.

well ok... dang those teachers.
shawn and i also talked abt the subjects,the curriculum.
the curriculum, is so slow and so draggy, the subjects, redundant
tell me, in my future career, where am i using binomial?
when in the world, am i going to use all these weird stuff
this is crazy, studying without a choice
we shoulnt be studying a wide range so that we can choose
our paths anyway in future.
thats so unfair.
i would go to a private school if i could, get tuition for every subject
but my family's poor, theres no point rejecting free education.
of course, freebies hav their cons.
well, i wont complain anymore, the rest i've written
on the wall of my heart, the back of my palm.
this grievance, all these uneccesary-ness.
its just but another white hair on my head.