yeah

God noes wat im going through.
thats the bestest benefit a human being can ever be given. When you are on the verge of snapping, feeling pissed with everything. God says, " open your eyes and look, for there are better things in life then what your stressed-up eyes can see."
and tada! i had four birthday celebrations today, of which none consists only of me. Isaac, winston, me- dont you all feel that we are darned lucky? not everyone has mass birthday celebrations, which are mutiplied by four.
first its during youth meeting. september babies were the most numerous, and we were given the warmest regards, applause and hugs and everything
second was a birthday cake that someone bought for the birthday babies, he didnt join us and didnt eat it, cauz he had a terrible day, but still, thanks joshua!
third was another birthday cake. This cake was supposed to be taken out after church youth choir yesterday. however, our choir leader had gone and forgetten abt it, so here's to it today.
fourth was a trip to tiong bahru plaza where the sec3's had batch-eat-together. we ate at KFC, and we just had fun.
it was a tiring day, doing video coverage for the launching of our chuch's 40 days of purpost thing. running around, getting infront for close-ups, straining my hands for better angles, and stressing my neurons to predict the later scenes. I wasn't briefed abt it, so i guess i didnt do a very good job, the air-con was cold, and i was shivering away like a moron. But i guess i did my best, i couldnt have done more.
so this is my prayer to God, Lord help me find my 40days of purpose handouts...i shouldnt have lost them, but i just dont really noe where they are, and i really need them to benefit from this thing.

my posts, your posts

my posts, your posts..
everyone's blog is in disaster.. pls, bring back the laughter in us... sadness written over the web, its a worldwide mourn.
why is everyone so sad? the question i have yet to answer, and unable to, not now. why?
im part of this worldwide mourning rhythm u noe... some really depressed people will scream in my tag : hey would u screw off? u noe nth abt my pain!
tag reply: no pain no gain, u shut urs up too.
hmms... ok my problem, unlike many, isnt abt stuff like EOYs, not abt stuff like others being too shitty for them, not abt betrayal, filthy backstabs, having idiots idiot-ing me, not abt insufficient money, nothing close to broken relationships, and definately not abt soggy french fries, or abt why the weather sucks today.
my problem is, me.
hav u heard this before? "hey, when u stone u look like u are depressed"
now wat abt this? " hey, whats with that "i wanna kill someone look"
well, the first one is common, the second one is me.. i cant believe it, i have to dont stone, to prevent people from thinking that i am a serial murderer. Whats that for? im just an average joe, and average joe-s dont go arnd drinking blood..
and to top this kind of things off, its lovely to have your birthday landing 2 weeks after 911 incident, havving your birthday on the 25th when your grandparents pass away on the 23rd and on the 24th.
NO BIG DEAL?! well, besides not celebrating the birthday, u dont get remembered either... and guess wat? people are actively preparing for their EOYs, their brains are jammed packed with other stuff, they juz cant rmb. note that this aint anyone's fault, just simply my fault.... well, maybe miss lim's fault?
well... its not that screwed up, after all this jazz, the most screwed up thing is, keith u are burdened with your frens burdens, and so am i
fiona u are sounding really depressed, and u are fading away.
sihui, when u didnt want the 1b people to go for the chalet, u almost gave me a reason to juz become a retard.
wenjie when u said u didnt use to like us, i realised what an asshole i was in secondary 1 and 2.
well, im sorry for jacon, keith, shuyi and everyone else who are stuck and spoiled by choice, its really tough to be mediators, its really tough, but thanks for always slogging your guts out..

woah

the terrible truth, the more u want someone to talk to you, or be with you, the less likely that would be... how true! the ironical truths always suck... sheez
ok.. study skills... well i wished it gave me someone who'd hold a knife at my throat to force me to study, but thats not wat study skills is about, its abt learning how and why u should study. i've got my reason, its because im aiming for a NUTS target which i probably never aimed for, which is to get into RJC. I've got enough of fairfield and average-ness. the fame fairfield enjoeyed had long gone. It used to be a school which didnt enjoy prestige, but had this bunch of hardworking students. AFter a batch of goons from fairfield primary started to take things for granted, the normal stream increased, from 3 classes, to 4 classes. Wth is that for u might ask, its juz there to accommodate the useless primary school students, for those who couldnt meet a mundane 188. wat a shame, and i wont plan to stay too long in a school which has its rich history scorned by the present generation.
well.. anyway, enough of the sad jazz, i got to think abt the intrument im going to make with my voice during church choir on saturday... sighzz

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oooh theres nothing to blog, so i'd juz blog a little shitty post abt my results...
L1R5.. 18? wthhh?! but thats not the full story, its around one of the highest in class.. highlights are.... core geography -80.9 and Emath-81.3 heh heh heh..
ok it was practically juz lucky, and i didnt mention my F9-ed chinese... oooooh ouch..
ahhh.. ok thats mainly abt all.. its been uneventful recently, and everyone, almost everyone, have been eating dust.. yyyuck.
ok.. i juz wanna say that, i have to get L1R5 6 cauz i need to get into RJC.. woooh!

baahhh

well, basically, i've been going to west coast recently, and i must say, that i can climb the rope pyramid thing like anything now...
hm... well basically, there isnt anything much to blog about, since it had been frisbee-less trips, which really placed a bar over the amount of fun i could have gotten.
well, no pictures for the time being, cauz i dont have a camera, damn it i guess i'll put that on my wishlist....

ok

ok.. i've been being lazy at blogging... certain events juz are so nice to blog about, but i dont have the time and the willingness of my fingers to go along with my mental desire.. so i guess
i'll be brief.
wednesday, we went to school for teachers day celebration. after that, we had ours.. hm... we went to west coast, planned to go to the beach. but when we saw the sky, our hearts fell............................................ actually we could have gone to play lan, but well, that really wouldnt go well with any girl's opinion..... well, anyway we decided to go to the bowling centres, but we juz had to have this shower in the rain before we could reach the bowling centre... checking out the arcade on the second floor,
NO DAYTONA? again, our hearts fell, but this is a lie.
afterall it was a bowling centre, who gives a heck abt the arcade?
so,SHUYI SIHUI ALLICIA FIONA YILING JACON KEITH ROBIN CHOO ZI JIAN NAT KUEI DER ME FERNANDO JING MING! went to the beach.. hmm that sounded anti-climax.. hm.. well thats because i lifted that off someone else's blog, explaining why my name isnt the first.. hahaa ok anyway, it was merely a drizzle at the beach, the girls didnt want to wet themselves, but i was dying to do otherwise.
got really wet, it was really cold, darn the sun, it was cowering from us the whole afternoon. after our beach expedition, we went on to tiong bahru for dinner, and thanks to jacon, i got the lousy-ier carrot cake, which had poorer taste and also a smaller serving...
anyway, after that we went home, they were juz kopigatai-ing and i was juz slacking at the side, it was an extremely tired day, and of course i was tired, tooo.

next post, the doubled west coast park...
before that.. heres Sayōnara
heeeeeeee! i mean.. byeeee!