life has been... busy busy busy.

and mood has been upset, indifferent, upset, happy, worried blah.

Pre-U seminar, ambition to be AYG(asian youth games) liason officer, cambodia trip
Guanhuai fangshi video, mute tongue tied evangelist, type stuff for the group, redo gp presentation, do math homework, research .
argh.

Pre-U sem= go home at 7 every tuesday and thursday

AYG= study damn hard so that i can prove that my academics dont suffer and thus i MIGHT qualify.

Cambodia trip= don't know.

Video= crack brains to visualise the whole drama

mute, tongued tied evangelist= confusion, mass panic

type stuff for group= work for abt 2 hours, type something that they claim they understand.

do math hw= damn tiring

research= polluting my child's mind with the economic anxieties of the adults.

foolishness again.

i feel really terrible. And im afraid to return to that old self who's all moody and pessimistic.

I hate to think that perhaps the reason why i've managed to become a little more cheerful is that life has been kind recently.

And until REALLY recent.

and now, life is a monster. I feel soo sooo conformed, so restricted.
I'm sick, I've got homework, CCA's becoming raving mad... I'm SCREWING UP MATH AND ECONS!

darn!

I know I better start shifting my focus. When homework gets monstrous.. its reminder..
its a reminder to run back to God.

Thus, today, after flipping the dusty pages of "A hunger for God", i felt this peaceful grumble in my stomach.
Disclaimer: seeking God brings peace, but dont seek God FOR peace. Seek God for HIMSELF.

OKAY QUICK a match of DoTA, then time to sleep!