random

i really havent been blogging, so please, dont sue me.
NCC camp was kinda tiring for some of us.. i guess its the lack of consistency in our own personal trainings, resulting in low stamina..
finally got a taaste of being in part D. no stand by bunks, no demanding drills.. ok so, how did we even get tired? like i tagged somewhere, the camp was suspiciously murderous.. ugh... ok anyway, been really busy, and sorry fiona for being unable to meet on monday, i swear i had a crazy headache!
ok yesterday was pretty exciting, i got to try to fabricate a prayer walk, i hope it was sucessful, but im sure i've got lots of space to improve.
things have been getting crazy, i guess im just getting older without realising it. suicides, group backstabs, hectic timetables and so much more to add...
ahh lets be honest here, since this is a blog.
i'll be honest.... i havent really touched my hw..
this sucks, im going to die... ahhhhh!!!
btw, the third side for tiberium wars has been revealed!!
" and then.... they came"

just some pretty random stuff

ok today was second day jobbing in crescent girls school. it wasnt every fun, since the girls were like so guy deprived... i mean.. u are carrying something, u turn around.. and wooo? so many people looking at you, and they cant be guys, cauz its a girls school..
ok then the first day's lunch was like.. i mean the noodles sucked... haha and the second day's noodles, sucked.. in all the soup and became so soggy and wet and fat and everything, lets be honest, digusting.

heres the shitty part in today.was going to my fren's hse to celebrate her birthday. In the morning, i asked my bro to meet me and torsten at redhill mrt station at 1630, otherwise 4.30 o'clock at the sensible time of the day. well, we reached the station at 420 after our job and we were like waiting for my bro. unknowingly, my bro had already gone somewhere far, yes.. he was already at around eunos paya lebar there...
and we were fools waiting abt at redhill.. to think that i actually got worried abt my bro and stayed waiting like so kinda toot.
and then at 530 i couldnt stand it anymore, yes one of the reasons was because i am impatient, but the other one is because i've been staying on my feet the whole day and my legs died, so i couldnt stand it.
and it obviously refered to the ground in that case...
ok anyway, reached her house, helped out with the dinner, both preparations and eating... heheh stop laughing
ok we went up to the apartment, and they just started watching high school musical and i was just getting dried up.
now everyone has left, im the only one left.. haha
so im blogging away at her house, cauz im staying over.
tomorrow is shooting competition, and her house sure is nearer to the NEE SOON camp then my hse is, explaining why i landed here, after a stroke of genius planning.
haha..i hope the bed is comfortable.. lol or else how i sleep? without a good sleep, how i aim? without a good aim, how to shoot? without shooting properly, how to win?
how how how? oh sorry, my friend's speech is getting into me.
haha how how how?
well, while im typing, my dear fren is making alot of noise at the back..
" the snow.. waah!" " but they are damn pro"
" the pro guy came between us and jumped over, and continued skating.."
" he didnt jump that high, he did some u noe that thing"
" we saw some beautiful angmohs"
" we must wear long socks next time, or else will have blisters"
"20cent coin la, ask isaac."

haha.. ok.. this is super random and lame...
lets end this, with the great adventure and mind boggling trail today, in an attempt to stay over and have a good shooting competition tomorrow.
first, woke up, packed my uniform, grabbed my beret and stuff...
second, called my bro to get boots for me, cauz torsten "ass-ed" and then forgot to bring his.
third, called my dad, left my speccs at home, he came to meet us in redhill, then he was saying " ahh... i was sleeping and u woke me up, so now im just going to go town to walk-walk.." and he went vivo city..
thats really a walk- walk!
fourth, "my bro panic".. i went and bothered neo abt my boots, but in the end, my bro turned up, so... no worries?! no no... the boots were mismatched! one was full leather, another is half leather.... LOL, luckily its a shooting competition, not drills or some best uniform jazz....
lastly, the no ear plugs complication. ive got no comments, cauz it isnt solved, and im dead meat. without the earplugs spells without ear drums.
i mean... i even doubt the spelling part, u cant spell too well, without first being able to hear wat u are spelling, right?

doulos

doulos, and i think i spelt this right is the... ship which was built 2 years after the titanic, and didnt sink like an idiot.

therefore, it broke the guiness world record for the oldest, still servicing ship. ( its so darn small, its a boat, i dont care..)

well, actually i didnt do much, coope some of zhong jie's icecream, bought a book called " if jesus were your counsellor"

well, no one fits this any better than jesus, God himself.

ok so now im blogging abt this trip which i went yesterday and some 7 years ago... well thats mostly because of some idiot called mabel, who couldnt view a .jpg format picture cauz her computer is hopelessly imba, too lousy.. haha.. sorry abt this, but in my blog, im the king.. heh heh heh.

ok so here goes, i'll start with the proof!

waah wat is this? the stern!

haha/.. really, im sorry for looking like an idiot at the side.

ahhh my good fren, called

snow man...

ok zhong jie is the dude

on the right, he is already.. 28? but he keeps insisting that

he is a sec4 or something.. haha.. yeah, he is a teacher, and i think

he teaches sec4 as well..

anyway thats it....

shitty

time is running short... hearing from my friends yesterday, i guess its rather impossible for me to make it into RJ... so does that mean that it'll be AC where i go?
i hav an idea though, i might go ACS(i) IB... hm.. hows that now?
who noes, its obvious that a diploma is better than a A'level, so....
well i dunno, im damn scared, i dunno where im going, im lost.
God help me, be my counsellor.

ok that was hell emo

ok that was emo, so lets skip that thing if we could.
ah today went to play lan with keith, wj, david, mence and my bro.
bro left early for some soccer game. so we continued and fooled about.
well.. life is getting abit of sian now, losing my purpose.
man.. ok anyway, my cousin was saying how her bro looks so charming
( like me) when he gets into his formal clothings.. heh heh....
ok anyway, out of point, as in totally
ok.. after the lan we went to eat some malay stuff, they all had nasi
lemak, so i went to extra and bought mee siam instead...
ah it was ok, but kena stomachache.
then later we decided to go tikam the one dollar thing... it was for the magnet... ah, but i got some shitty lousy dolphin floating in a cap..
AHHH! ok i could've placed that damned thing here, but.. wheres my camera now?!
ok aanyway, still pretty exhausted from the chalet, gtg sleep, already!

came into my life

came into my life, touched my heart. now u left, smashed my dreams
into countless pieces.
came so close, nudging me. i couldnt take it, i had to act like i could.
you liked me, and i knew. but i didnt do anything, for nothing was
everything i could do.
looking at you, i knew why i liked you. perfect for me, but now.. probably not. you and your life of luxury, your ring of friends and attention
me? none...
i dont need those, i only need you. some guy came in, rewrote this story.
broke your heart, and u then sealed it from me.
unfair? i dont noe, everything you do is fair, how can u ever be wrong?
sarcasm u claim, im under your trance.
but wats the point, i wont have u, for u didnt want me.
under the tree, the raindrops tapped heavily. my heart sank
my dreams washed away.
would waiting for u a few more years, change the circumstances?
i wished it could, but deep down, i knew it'd never.
i wouldnt wait 2 hours for my Amath paper to start,
but i would wait 2 more years for you to come back.
please, if i could still be the one for you...

nothing

ahh.. im finally back frm the chalet..

those idiots pangsei me, jacon and daniel.. they went for lunch at tiong bahru!!! WAHLAO EH

ok anyway... kinda tired, let me show u something, u might want to see..

corks... ( boooooo...)

oops... yes we did drink sth.....

nothing beats 4 gays ( and 1 guy, me) squished into a small

pool like this...

row 1: robin ( sorry abt that cut-off), me, wenjie, keith, jacon

nat, sihui, yiling, fiona.

back row, row 2, watever:caleb, robin choo, fern, shuyi, alicia, lennard

brian..

hello

hey guys, this will be my last post untill thursday..
firstly, i'd like to say HI! to the ipoh ppl, had fun?
ok u see, im going to some insane chalet today, its monday to thursday.
heres wishing for a conflict-less chalet, and that everyone will have fun!
ok well, i must rmb to do my hw... or else im just going to die, the holidays are abt to get tougher..
so.. yeah ok, BYE!

lets get emo

lets get emo... LOL wats with this emo craze?
first it was the haze, now its gotten into our heads
as a result, we're currently emo-ing around and behaving like idiots.
ok so no more emo.. but.. didnt emo as in emotions make the world go round?
i dunno.
so anyway, heres a list of things to do in the holidays.
1. sit down and think abt how to win a shooting competition.
2. figure out how to spend my time, so that teachers dont get to scold me next year
3. fix my additional mathematics and physics.
4. get a job? i hope it'll be slack, if i get it
5. learn piano... ( again.. aww.. wat abt power rangers now?)
ok i quit piano when i was 8 because i wanted to watch my power rangers
instead of "wasting" my time looking at black and white stuff.
6. grind my guts for chuch camp.. the theme is 1 body many parts, hav u done
your part, anway.
7.catch every single droplet of info during dom 7 camp, so i can fare better when
our chuch choir has its anthems.
8. Play LAn and kick BUTT?
9. play ATC raycrash with keith online and give him some unpleasant surprise.
10. go for a lap top hunt.
11. save up and buy dawn of war: dark crusade.
12. buy more clothes
13. new pants? im like stuck with single handed countable amount.
14. buy haribo for people who look like snails
15. christmas gifts hunt.
16. day dream
17. mundane tasks
18.uhuh i guess i only hav 17..\
19. 18 isnt counted
20. 19 isnt counted
21.20 isnt counted
22.21 isnt counted.
23. etc, this list goes forever.

My personal profile.
Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.


ok.... now do i sound like a rebel or a terrorist? dunno, what abt you? are u?
why not check this web out? http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm?

emo post, a terribly lovely nightmare

in the nightmare.
u were shot.. ugh why?
because of him? you would do that?
three shots sank into you.. the face twisted with agony.
out from your mouth gushed a pool of blood.
u would do that.. for him?
ran beside you, u looked at me.
in agony u smiled.... your face was drenched in sweat.
looking weak, but yet looking strong.
i felt like laughing, and i did.
u laughed, and with each laugh, u spilled more blood.
we laughed, though u were hanging by the edge of your life,
i guess that was my happiest moment in my entire life...
and now, awoken to the painful reality.

the lines on our graphs

"maybe we'll be like the two lines that would intersect and if we are parallel, we can be the same line and intersect from the beginning to infinity."
ok, lets just hope that our parallels arent going to be y=mx+ c and y=mx+d
if its that way, then im afraid...
the lines have never met, and they wont, never ever.
however, if it would be two lines of different gradient, i hope
they'll meet soon, in due time.
so that's all, let the draw-er of our graphs decide this fate.
be it so close but so far, or that our time is not yet, we'll all leave that there.

help me

your smile...
i didnt catch it then, some nearly 1.5 years ago.
i wont catch it anymore, since soon there will be no more.
it seems drastically impposible, to talk those nonsense
it wont be the same, some "heyy" would never fill up that space
how about running to your computer, though its a mile away
just to check the conversation, and all the talk you gave?
what about being honest, its better than your cold facade
the truth is buried, far from either of us, i dont even know, if you'd know
but u think u know, and you run. What you dont, is just about everything
i lied, and u think i am who i lied that i am
im not.
this fabric is torn apart, be merciful will you?
you are tearing out the very heart of mine.
so, am i going to have you back? yes?
as a? memory or just simply, the real, solid you?
like-d me uh...
what abt,
like me now?

God help me, fix this choice

hello, back again.

ahhh.. osrry sorry.. i havent been blogging, at all.
it isnt a sin, but im feeling uneasy.. what am i supposed to say to all my fans?!
ok anyway, just really happy that the extended has already ended, and its officially holiday.
i would...
finally make my IC, after some 1 month plus.
buy my new schoool term books
do 120 mathematics questions, insane?
write more nonsense on this blog.
go outings?
go for 2 chalets
2 church camps
i wished i could go to bangkok, but it clashes with dom 7 camp
slog my guts out for the church youth camp
do something, something but i dunno wat yet
ok now for the omgwtfbbq emo part.
ok some disclaimers. dont think this is you, cauz u might think so and start scuttering
to a corner after knowing how emo my "love life" is, which is actually no life.
and im not interested to hav a life in the love life, untill im well, my age times 2 minus
6?
ok here goes.
someday, i saw her, she with him, and him wasnt me. Him could have been me, but i
had decided to follow HE.
ok enough from that sentence, now for the dissection.
she is, u noe... him is, she's u noe.... HE, is God.
i dont have time for relationships,
i dont even have the mind to take it.
if i went and decided to be dumb,
to sign up for a looney crash cross....
i knew i'd
die.....
so i didnt, time isnt ripe, it isnt on my side.
if i did things by my stride,
simply for my pride, things would turn ugly,
now, if not later.
I asked God today, if i made the right choice, tears flow down
and all was clear. I did make the right choice.
i dont care if i die without having a girlfriend
i dont care if i pass without a mark of a relationship
i dont even care if i die without knowing if anyone actually wanted me
it doesnt matter, they're mere deco's on my passport
deco's i'd love to have, but yet are
as useless as any other deco's are.
so i lost, i lost her to another guy uh?
i hate to to that, but i really, will never stick a nose of a novice
into a matter of such complexity.
though i think of the choice i made as right,
i cant help but feel a little unwell
as my insides tangled in a raging fight.

i hope my choice was right, lord, watever u take away, u promised
to substitute it with yourself.
even if the circle of chance doesnt come around, Lord, have your
way.
in me.