heya, back from the youth camp, of which i was the camp commandant. trust me, its scary when you've got a third eye, otherwise means that its scary when u see everything . EVERYTHING
ok im talking to ck now and he's complaining abt getting emo over his "hmm..."
and so im just acting like i dont feel anything and giving him cold (but really real) answers to his problems.
heres a brief look at camp.
screwed up but memorable ( okok im joking, though not totally)
first day it was the registration. the publicity was like i dunno, anyhow give out the name tags and then they were messed up, huiyun and eudora had to go re-sort them out.
then here comes screw-up number one,i happily skipped breakfast, and now i had a stomach ache, combined with a murderous gastric pain. so i skipped the opening ceremony, and bombed the toilet like wth? haha.. when i came back up.. the ceremony was like way over, torsten was just infront, teaching away abt the camp themme song which he wrote.
then after that we had the first talk by our very own pastor. heres the second screw-up. i wont elaborate on it, cauz its actually nothing gotta do with me...
ok after that was amazing race, torsten was kinda late to come back for the briefing, as a result, we set-off a little late. the weather was like (eat shit) so it wasnt very fun, running abt with out paper lollipop when it isnt supposed to get wet... thanks edric, for holding it most of the time...
then we went sentosa for the final showdown which didnt happen.... haha wth?!
we went back to church in a bus, not with everyone onboard, cauz we made the bus uncle wait for like.. 1 hour already..
we went back to church, some showered, some didnt. but everyone ate dinner, so who cares? haha.
after that was singspiration, ervine was giving his im-relaxed-man-u-better-relax-too-cauz-this-is-merely-a-singspiration. watever, he was leading it! u better lead better in future if u read this post.
( ok ck is trying to plan a countdown party with me now, so last minute.. haha)
ok anyway.. it was the night games.. and i tell you, xiaoke was super duper scary, show u when i get a picture of him on the blog, he seriously looked like a zombie! and wth, he is a 1.9m tall walking zombie! it was like wth?!!! run!
ok.. the rest werent that scary, cauz this was rather last minute... and the mystery was solved later, and we were like wth? thats it?!!!
ok after that was just.. supper, waste time talk talk, lightsout was at 0130
second day....
the morning was super zombified.
we went for morning devotion in our grps, and like last night's it was fruitful, truly. this is one of the main learning points. "when we do things for God, be it worship or gospel or any other service, we must remind ourselves, to do this in the name of our love for God, not for a ticket to heaven, if its for the ticket to heaven, then we're merely doing all that for the love of ourselves.. so, do we serve for ourselves, or for God, today?"
well, the talk by the pastor was again fruitful, so, guys, hav we started doing our parts and parts of the body?
though the parts are many, there is only 1 body, the body of christ.
if u do not bear fruits, u'll be removed, dried and burnt in the inferno (hell i guess...)
im sure we all love to burn things, and im so sure we dont love to be burnt either.
afternoon games were the SCREW-UP-EMO-WATEVER. im sorry for the recreation grp... its everyone's fault when things dont work, not all yours, so dont blame it on yourselves too much such that u dont deserve it. er.. haha that last part wasnt really encouraging...
the final showdown was the worst part.. ok we were like complaining that our lollipops had the least amt of paper, therefore making it the easiest to break with the waterbombs. mabel tried to defend the recreation grp by saying that they ran out of paper to make the last lollipop thick enough. from the way she said that, i could tell that she didnt quite believe wat she said either... but thats not the point, i thought that anything that could quell this nonsense was everything resembling good.
so we played the game anyway, with sucess in mind. i went and stirred up a 3 team alliance, and we ganged the first group like anything, they died in a matter of seconds. then the game masters just suddenly felt like sending members from my grp out and there were claims that we actually got hit by the waterbombs but we didnt go out. ok if u got hit by a waterbomb, u are supposed to be "dead" and get out of the arena. but the problem is, we didnt get hit by the waterbomb, i guess that sufficiently explains why we're still in the arena.
i was like reflecting on my way back to the bunk after the game ended due to the presence of soap on the floor, which the teachers-in-charge soon "assumed really well" caused some guy to fall down really badly, and was like crying away, give him a break man, he is a p6, any bad fall would hav been intolerable...
and so i was reflecting, uncomfortable thoughts soon became nightmares, nightmares slowly forced their way over the barrier and became living nightmares, and finally evolved into "realities" which was nonsense, i was merely climbing up my staircase wit and making things really shittier than they should be with my vast unstoppable creativity.
so i cant stand it. the last string of sanity snapped, (it'll join back later, and it already has...) and there was the normal big HOOHAA abt the camp commandant breaking down, which is still a big HOOHAA even though it happens every year.
btw, im really sorry mabel for not replying your nice message, no one replies messages while crying, really! (ok this doesnt sound apologetic but...ugh..)
ok then there was dinner, pizza, wow! haha but it was kinda too much and we wasted kinda too much too... did u catch that?
at night was the talent night thing, and damn it, there was no campfire. the MCs were seriously superb, we acted, did cheers, seriously guys, the cheer number 1 is not a sick cheer, it was meant to go with their little skit.
our grp won the best teamwork thing, there's nothing much abt that, haha its the IMBA grp afterall.
then it was time for reflection, there were certain remarks i kknew would come but i didnt want to hear...say, one person said this. "i couldnt turn up for last year's camp so i dont noe wat exactly happened, though i think the previous camp would've been more fun." i was like.. thanks! buddy....
well, we went planning the prayer labyrinth thing later at night, from abt 1-245.
actually i wasnt in the planning, i feel deep asleep halfway and they couldnt wake me up, so i woke up at abt 240, after having slept for abt 45mins.
haha eh, i was seriously tired ok!
then after that i went to the attic, children's chapel. they were like playing lame games there. a grp of guys and girls were like sleeping there, its undeniable how everyone hates the partition which seperated the guy's bunk from the girl's bunk, so we all slept in the attic.. haha which was such a genius idea by me.
before sleeping, i was at the playground, ck was like (i cant say exactly wat) but then he was ok once i came, though i wasnt supposed to be there. he later patched out his problem, so i was just sitting at the playground, somewhere dark with mabel, talking for more than 5 mins for the second time in my life, talked abt many stuff, abt everybody, except both of us i guess... hey it was only talking ok!
haha unknowingly time passed, it was like WTH!! its 5 in the morning already! so we walked back into the children's chapel and after a few games of card games, everyone who were still awake went back to sleep. woke up the next day at abt 9, had abt 3.5 hours of sleep....cauz i actually slept at 530 or something
everyone in the chapel were like gone except that idiot isaac who was still sleeping and complaining to me that he needs 5 more mins. previously at 815, i woke up, woke him up too, and he was like 5 mins.. and so 5mins later... haha no u mean 45mins later, i woke up... and it was 9. so i cant stand it, i pulled the blanket from beneath him and like kick him a few times, so he woke up and said something like "im still tired la, deh"
haha to hell with him la, i went back to the bunk to get my toothpaste.. after im done with my mouth i went downstairs for breakfast.
those mean idiots devoured the nice stuff, leaving me only with cow's milk and cereal, idiots! im mildly lactose intolerant!
ok the prayer labyrinth which was a last minute perfect screw up, was carried on with people dozing off everywhere in the worship hall.. haha i mean, everyone's tired and bored.. dont blame them!
so we gave out the souveniers and stuff... and we broke camp.
went tiong with edric and elton. and later met er.. eunice lee and eudora and eunice lim at tiong. we had lunch and i was taking forever to finish my bowl of noodles, i was smsing la damn it... haha
went to edric and elton's hse later... we were playing dota over bnet, supposedly to go 3 man bang other people.. but i didnt hav an account and it was so difficult to create one on euro bnet.. so... here's the solution
elton went to sleep and i used his account. we played a freaking long match where edric was ogre magi who multicasted like crazy, and i was priestess of the moon and ended of with retarded items... BoT, myjollnir, eye of scadi, aegis of the immortal, divine rapier, and S&Y.
i figured my way home.. and amazingly the bustop had like.. 147?! i was super lucky, direct bus home... when i reached home, i skipped dinner, too tired, messaged a few people, and i was in bed, drifting far away into my dreams.. but no, i had a dreamless sleep, woke up, and typed this insane retarted post which is like so super duper long.. haha
so thats that, pictures some time later...
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Monday, December 25, 2006
my IQ?
wow thats my IQ? lol ok watever, i already knew that i was a genius, so this is really redundant..
haha
Sunday, December 24, 2006
so much for that white christmas
ugh.. lol i didnt get to go snowcity afterall, no white christmas... damnit!
haha ok er.. i'll be brief. we went to snow city, reached at 1315. and the next available session was like wth?! 1545? so we were like...
heck, lets go jurong entertainment centre.
it was drizzling on the way there, and melissa was so sua ku she didnt noe how to get to JEC frm science centre.
ok.. we had jap at KOBA. but the spicy ramen was like so potent my stomach was giving me trouble a little later.
we went up to the skating ring. is was like flooded with people there, how idiotic...
so we just sat at the side, took dumb photos. hm.. haha
i wont post it here, so if mabel, congkai or melissa wants any of them,
pls just msg me on msn. congkai and mel would just hav to add me first, lty7791352@hotmail.com
lol
haha ok er.. i'll be brief. we went to snow city, reached at 1315. and the next available session was like wth?! 1545? so we were like...
heck, lets go jurong entertainment centre.
it was drizzling on the way there, and melissa was so sua ku she didnt noe how to get to JEC frm science centre.
ok.. we had jap at KOBA. but the spicy ramen was like so potent my stomach was giving me trouble a little later.
we went up to the skating ring. is was like flooded with people there, how idiotic...
so we just sat at the side, took dumb photos. hm.. haha
i wont post it here, so if mabel, congkai or melissa wants any of them,
pls just msg me on msn. congkai and mel would just hav to add me first, lty7791352@hotmail.com
lol
it isnt that hard
it isnt that hard, to be someone on your blog, talking abt God and stuff
and be a monster in real life.
it isnt hard to say that some girl sucks.
when u suck as well..
it isnt that hard, to convince yourself that you're right
it isnt that hard to lie
it isnt that hard tolie to yourself, either
it isnt that hard, to be nasty to certain people,
yet be a gentle angel, fluttering above my head
it isnt that hard....
but it was supposed to be.
it isnt that hard for me either, since i am kinda bad mouthing someone now. we reason that its ok when we utter cold hard facts, we reason that its ok, its reasonable.
isit?
i dont noe. i mean . i dont noe you, i didnt want to work with you.
persuaded i agreed. i thought u were like fun and all, funky and such.
but i guess u are kinda overboard. What kind of nonsense was that? reasoning and defending yourself like as if u were right. u noe who u are, cauz no one can do things without watching if anyone was watching, im watching mind you. and i regret my choice. i mean. who are u to comment on the product of my sweat and blood, who are u to think, or claim something u didnt do as a replacement for something u must do.
shit you, wake up. damnit.
well... that was some load of emo nonsense, it reminds us not to act hypocritically and dont defend yourself when you're in the wrong, dont be, a moron. just take it, dont think abt nonsensical matters such as your own pride and all that kind of nonsense shit.
and be a monster in real life.
it isnt hard to say that some girl sucks.
when u suck as well..
it isnt that hard, to convince yourself that you're right
it isnt that hard to lie
it isnt that hard tolie to yourself, either
it isnt that hard, to be nasty to certain people,
yet be a gentle angel, fluttering above my head
it isnt that hard....
but it was supposed to be.
it isnt that hard for me either, since i am kinda bad mouthing someone now. we reason that its ok when we utter cold hard facts, we reason that its ok, its reasonable.
isit?
i dont noe. i mean . i dont noe you, i didnt want to work with you.
persuaded i agreed. i thought u were like fun and all, funky and such.
but i guess u are kinda overboard. What kind of nonsense was that? reasoning and defending yourself like as if u were right. u noe who u are, cauz no one can do things without watching if anyone was watching, im watching mind you. and i regret my choice. i mean. who are u to comment on the product of my sweat and blood, who are u to think, or claim something u didnt do as a replacement for something u must do.
shit you, wake up. damnit.
well... that was some load of emo nonsense, it reminds us not to act hypocritically and dont defend yourself when you're in the wrong, dont be, a moron. just take it, dont think abt nonsensical matters such as your own pride and all that kind of nonsense shit.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
its just shit
and you could see it in my soul
i said all the words i'd ever know.
all it did was.
nothing. i'd sell who i am off to get who u are.
maybe, maybe im too good for my own good.
ok yes, i havent blog for days. but i do hav a reason damnit!
haha look, i went for choir performance 3 times already, once a taman jurong cc ( a pretty nice community club) paragon (er.. wait u dont noe where that is? then i guess i dont noe how to go home either).
and finally, tanglin halt CC, which was pretty.. haha pale in comparison with the other two locations, but thats not the point. where we're going, we glorify God, we beautify our environment, our environment will not dictate us.
thats not all, i made my IC, i did alot of camp stuff, i watched "night at the museum" which is a shittily funny show which is like lame and all, but definitely worth the watch.
ok look i've just literally vomitted everything out, dont u think its like time for me to sleep? i think so, i've got another big day tomorrow! argh shoots i forgot
i cant sleep unless i receive the new groupings for camp... arghhh im being tormented da.. nah night and night
i said all the words i'd ever know.
all it did was.
nothing. i'd sell who i am off to get who u are.
maybe, maybe im too good for my own good.
ok yes, i havent blog for days. but i do hav a reason damnit!
haha look, i went for choir performance 3 times already, once a taman jurong cc ( a pretty nice community club) paragon (er.. wait u dont noe where that is? then i guess i dont noe how to go home either).
and finally, tanglin halt CC, which was pretty.. haha pale in comparison with the other two locations, but thats not the point. where we're going, we glorify God, we beautify our environment, our environment will not dictate us.
thats not all, i made my IC, i did alot of camp stuff, i watched "night at the museum" which is a shittily funny show which is like lame and all, but definitely worth the watch.
ok look i've just literally vomitted everything out, dont u think its like time for me to sleep? i think so, i've got another big day tomorrow! argh shoots i forgot
i cant sleep unless i receive the new groupings for camp... arghhh im being tormented da.. nah night and night
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
my christmas?
all i want for christmas, was to be relaxed, peace.
all i want for christmas..
all i want for christmas? who am i to want anything for christmas?
cauz christmas isnt mine.
what am i supposed to give on christmas?
gold?
perfume?
immitating the wise men uh?
what, do i give for christmas, so that
this would really be christmas
i dont noe,
cauz
somewhere deep inside me is where christmas really starts
looks like, my gift to God.
is my heart, given to God.
all i need for christmas is. Love actually.
haha seen that somewhere on the TV? i think so.
lets look at my hectic timetable
today- camp meeting, xiao ce zi, CCIS practice. ( supposedly homework tooo)
thursday- homework in the morning, then recce with the kangle. CCIS at night
friday- make my ic which was delayed for 2 months already. be my bro's fashion advisor and follow him around so that he wont look ridiculous during christmas.CCIS at night
saturday- hw and choir practice ( or isit the CC thing at tanglin?)
sunday- church, movie date with my cousin and mabel (hope she's going) and then finally at night, my friend's hse, christmas party!!
all i want for christmas..
all i want for christmas? who am i to want anything for christmas?
cauz christmas isnt mine.
what am i supposed to give on christmas?
gold?
perfume?
immitating the wise men uh?
what, do i give for christmas, so that
this would really be christmas
i dont noe,
cauz
somewhere deep inside me is where christmas really starts
looks like, my gift to God.
is my heart, given to God.
all i need for christmas is. Love actually.
haha seen that somewhere on the TV? i think so.
lets look at my hectic timetable
today- camp meeting, xiao ce zi, CCIS practice. ( supposedly homework tooo)
thursday- homework in the morning, then recce with the kangle. CCIS at night
friday- make my ic which was delayed for 2 months already. be my bro's fashion advisor and follow him around so that he wont look ridiculous during christmas.CCIS at night
saturday- hw and choir practice ( or isit the CC thing at tanglin?)
sunday- church, movie date with my cousin and mabel (hope she's going) and then finally at night, my friend's hse, christmas party!!
Monday, December 18, 2006
nothing
some people say that the happy people u see, are just the ones whom u didnt see in sorrow. i say.....
heck la wat the hell come up with this kinda of nonsense for wat
lol im just glad that im a happy person to most people. obviously those who read my blog think that im leading a terrible life, eating shit everyday, falling down face-flat on every slippery floor, people telling me to screw off everywhere and watnot.
im tell you, i blog abt emo stuff because emo stuff sell better. this english tuition teacher, my bro's, not mine. said that, when u write an essay, be clever and write a sad story. dont go " i love happy endings" and go try writing a nice, happily ever after kinda nonsense, cauz u wont score. just imagine cambridge markers as sadistic emo people who feed of the misery of others
of course he didnt mean the cambridge markers part, he'd hav gotten sued for slander!
heck la wat the hell come up with this kinda of nonsense for wat
lol im just glad that im a happy person to most people. obviously those who read my blog think that im leading a terrible life, eating shit everyday, falling down face-flat on every slippery floor, people telling me to screw off everywhere and watnot.
im tell you, i blog abt emo stuff because emo stuff sell better. this english tuition teacher, my bro's, not mine. said that, when u write an essay, be clever and write a sad story. dont go " i love happy endings" and go try writing a nice, happily ever after kinda nonsense, cauz u wont score. just imagine cambridge markers as sadistic emo people who feed of the misery of others
of course he didnt mean the cambridge markers part, he'd hav gotten sued for slander!
the rain
rain, has many adverse effects on human emotions.
spirits down and going. drown six feets underground in the rain.
a man who is upset, is rain bids him to suicide.
low spirits, lack of self worth, worthless and light, flung about in the rage of the winds, softened and broken by uncountable numbers of raindrops, slamming their fullest onto the already swollen and breaking soul.
someone feels so useless in the rain, even wat he is to himself now, is broken to pieces.
spirits high in an atmosphere of intense romance. rain pours, but all is happy to be together, squeezed in the cozy shelter, with the steady beat of the harmful rain away, the cooling breeze rushes in, it doesnt matter, they've got each other.
adrenalin coursing the veins of a man, the intense heat of game he is partaking can never be drown by the pellets of freezing cold droplets. the chill penetrates him inside-out.threatening to bring him down. No, this game must be won, the rage and desire to win ignites in him, he'd pay the penalty later, but he is glad, rain cant ever stop a man from being a dream chaser...
i guess, the rain is merely a catalyst to our emotions, heightening, or bringing them down to record low levels. it may be there, we could always choose to ignore it. So, when rain comes, what would you, do?
spirits down and going. drown six feets underground in the rain.
a man who is upset, is rain bids him to suicide.
low spirits, lack of self worth, worthless and light, flung about in the rage of the winds, softened and broken by uncountable numbers of raindrops, slamming their fullest onto the already swollen and breaking soul.
someone feels so useless in the rain, even wat he is to himself now, is broken to pieces.
spirits high in an atmosphere of intense romance. rain pours, but all is happy to be together, squeezed in the cozy shelter, with the steady beat of the harmful rain away, the cooling breeze rushes in, it doesnt matter, they've got each other.
adrenalin coursing the veins of a man, the intense heat of game he is partaking can never be drown by the pellets of freezing cold droplets. the chill penetrates him inside-out.threatening to bring him down. No, this game must be won, the rage and desire to win ignites in him, he'd pay the penalty later, but he is glad, rain cant ever stop a man from being a dream chaser...
i guess, the rain is merely a catalyst to our emotions, heightening, or bringing them down to record low levels. it may be there, we could always choose to ignore it. So, when rain comes, what would you, do?
Saturday, December 16, 2006
no tittle
ah wat am i supposed to blog inthis boring holiday, where my timetable screws up everyday....
ok lets look at the geog project. wet rice cultivation. sounds ok.. wait the second part, in peninsular malaysia!?! wahhh how are u supposed to specifically find anything abt that?
arggh to top that off, there's nCC orientation skit practice, though im totally grateful that the rest of the stuff, like CCa booth and stuff were all done and now i only hav to do the skit well
secondly, i dunno how fiona got herself so really ill she has a 2 weeks MC, so there goes 1 team member.... oooooh this sucks
ok went for recce to sentosa on thursday, boy was it a torture, i went sentosa, with only like.. 13 dollars? how did i do that? well i dunno, heres the main part, i came back with $5.. which meant that i only spent $8, in sentosa? now u could like almost guess how bored i was, dragging my feet all over sentosa's lanes and roads.
ok lets see... friday was...morning till afternoon NCC skit, afternoon to abt 7.40 pm doing the puzzle thing for the youth camp... ahhh! for 3 hours i only cut out 2 limbs and puzzled them. thanks mabel for the help, though u only managed to get out one puzzle in abt 20mins... haha be sure to finish the whole thing properly hor.
now theres this voice instrumentation thing on sunday, and im so screwed for the harp. looks like life sucks when it sucks - blatant logic.
ok looks like i still hav abt 90 more questions for math and thats not all, i have my geog essays, and i dont even hav my question paper.. oh oh this sucks...
going to shop for clothes later.. sheesh might as well dont go if my mum gives me a puny budget
ok lets look at the geog project. wet rice cultivation. sounds ok.. wait the second part, in peninsular malaysia!?! wahhh how are u supposed to specifically find anything abt that?
arggh to top that off, there's nCC orientation skit practice, though im totally grateful that the rest of the stuff, like CCa booth and stuff were all done and now i only hav to do the skit well
secondly, i dunno how fiona got herself so really ill she has a 2 weeks MC, so there goes 1 team member.... oooooh this sucks
ok went for recce to sentosa on thursday, boy was it a torture, i went sentosa, with only like.. 13 dollars? how did i do that? well i dunno, heres the main part, i came back with $5.. which meant that i only spent $8, in sentosa? now u could like almost guess how bored i was, dragging my feet all over sentosa's lanes and roads.
ok lets see... friday was...morning till afternoon NCC skit, afternoon to abt 7.40 pm doing the puzzle thing for the youth camp... ahhh! for 3 hours i only cut out 2 limbs and puzzled them. thanks mabel for the help, though u only managed to get out one puzzle in abt 20mins... haha be sure to finish the whole thing properly hor.
now theres this voice instrumentation thing on sunday, and im so screwed for the harp. looks like life sucks when it sucks - blatant logic.
ok looks like i still hav abt 90 more questions for math and thats not all, i have my geog essays, and i dont even hav my question paper.. oh oh this sucks...
going to shop for clothes later.. sheesh might as well dont go if my mum gives me a puny budget
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
new phone!
ok for today's session, lets look at my new phone.. haha its the hm.. yeah it owns!
hahah waaah look at it! ok actually there's nothing much else to say.. haha watever. thats that, signing off already.
tuck
nonsense
i think alot, but sometimes i rather not thing. im confusing and i beat abt the bush, so when people read the emo posts they thing its them wherre my finger points. nnnahh relax!
ok today's luch sucked.. i mean.. salmon? oh i hate salmon, they taste better when raw, cauz thats when they're almost tasteless...
going to take video in church later... hmm.. i need a heart of perseverance and patience..
ok today's luch sucked.. i mean.. salmon? oh i hate salmon, they taste better when raw, cauz thats when they're almost tasteless...
going to take video in church later... hmm.. i need a heart of perseverance and patience..
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
timetable
yes, the timetable went off today, aunty esther didnt want a video taking today, that is sooooo off, cauz it ends up that today didnt fit into the timetable. so darn it, its 1 day off the timetable and everything will just screw up.. and damn u wilson and fiona! why project and my hse? u lazy fools shouldnt choose my hse just because its near the school!@$%**&
ooh why is that part "linked" damn the web browser thinks that its a email address.. lol
ok wait i bet i freaked u guys out. its like
tuck yan and timetable.... no relationship leh.. yes, very smart, really, i cant believe that i did a timetable either, i must be like moron-ated (marinated)
ok watevr this is getting awfully random...
yes, i still hav a hundred math questions to do,...
so i guess i'lll just fly away now.
ooh why is that part "linked" damn the web browser thinks that its a email address.. lol
ok wait i bet i freaked u guys out. its like
tuck yan and timetable.... no relationship leh.. yes, very smart, really, i cant believe that i did a timetable either, i must be like moron-ated (marinated)
ok watevr this is getting awfully random...
yes, i still hav a hundred math questions to do,...
so i guess i'lll just fly away now.
shit this sucks
as i've said, thousand times before, life sucks.
you are singing a song, its where u hav to sing a note once every 1/12 of a bar. watever it is, it is partially my fault that its off beat, but thats not all, i get my note from u both, damn it, sing it properly, im tired of putting a smile on and convincing mysself that its my fault, when it isnt totally!
screw, life sucks. If u dont stand up and stand out, u get drastically overshadowed.
i dunno why im typing all these nonsensical rantiings, but sometimes, life sucks so much u cant really understand, why why why?
ok i'll keep this a little more, cauz i have to say this, but then, i guess i really hav to, since its been here, rolling abt the bottom of my heart. jumping here and dere, whenever i see...
you. im sure u noe, abt how i feel, i almost see you everyday, a slow crawl over a long way. you noe that we cant really talk, cauz we both noe abt wat im writing here. u said that he was waiting, u said that u were sorry, and then, wat abt me? as long as he had been waiting, so have i. Are u sorry? dont be.cauz its my fault, anyone will be displease that i've held on so long, and havent been making my move, but u noe me, u noe that im not getting into anything untill im at least done with my A's, or a IB diploma... i cant make my move, cauz it just wont be good, it wont turn out well. it wouldnt.
someone who reads this might think.
watever, signing off, a totally capped up person
you are singing a song, its where u hav to sing a note once every 1/12 of a bar. watever it is, it is partially my fault that its off beat, but thats not all, i get my note from u both, damn it, sing it properly, im tired of putting a smile on and convincing mysself that its my fault, when it isnt totally!
screw, life sucks. If u dont stand up and stand out, u get drastically overshadowed.
i dunno why im typing all these nonsensical rantiings, but sometimes, life sucks so much u cant really understand, why why why?
ok i'll keep this a little more, cauz i have to say this, but then, i guess i really hav to, since its been here, rolling abt the bottom of my heart. jumping here and dere, whenever i see...
you. im sure u noe, abt how i feel, i almost see you everyday, a slow crawl over a long way. you noe that we cant really talk, cauz we both noe abt wat im writing here. u said that he was waiting, u said that u were sorry, and then, wat abt me? as long as he had been waiting, so have i. Are u sorry? dont be.cauz its my fault, anyone will be displease that i've held on so long, and havent been making my move, but u noe me, u noe that im not getting into anything untill im at least done with my A's, or a IB diploma... i cant make my move, cauz it just wont be good, it wont turn out well. it wouldnt.
someone who reads this might think.
watever, signing off, a totally capped up person
Monday, December 11, 2006
hehe im being gay, forgive me
So, how are you..whatcha up to?
-blogging, or u wont see this
Oh sounds like fun...so...what's your name...?
-tuck yan ( the great is my er... english name)
Hahaha your name sucks...
-haha and u dont even hav one
Eh whatever. So what's your favorite band?
-none, bands all suck balls
Cool. How Tall you you?
-wat you you, if i got it right, im 168cm
How many pillows do you sleep with?
-2, you?
Do you really care what people think?
-if i consider them people, yes i will care
What kind of music do you listen to?
-none, maybe classical
Have you ever met Abe Lincoln?
-er.. might, in heaven
Aw You're no fun! And don't call me a bitch!
-i wont, cauz u are a guy and that makes u a BAS third
Haha, anyway, what color hair do you have?
-its black, and its red infront ( its natural damnit )
Cool, so I assume your taking this because your bored right?
-loser, wrong, its because of bad influence from blogs
That's what I thought...Loser...
- wat the hell? how did u guess that u were a loser?
Haha, just kidding. What color are your eyes?
-they are brown, duh, no one has black eyes btw..
So, who do you have a crush on?
-u sure u want to noe? ask my frens wil you?
Why is the sky blue, and don't give me some scientific explanation mister..
- the sky is blue because of the reduction in frequency of the whitelight when the light passes through the atmosphere, resulting is a different "coloured" light.
What are you listening to now?
-noise from the Tv
How about now?
- * repeat*
Cool...
-ice cream/? the air conditioner isnt switched on u noe...
Are you wearing rings?
-onion rings maybe
Can you loan me 100 bucks?
-when u loan me 101bucks
Oh ok...What kinda clothes do you wear?
-why? getting clothes for me during christmas? i dont noe you!
Why did you answer that?
-dunno, why did u ask that, u moron
Haha ok. Um...Best Green Day album?
-none, green day sucks balls
And if you don't like them, why!!!!
- wats the deal, ask anybody they'll scream in your face, the same thing
Uh well fine then!! Few more questions. Is that ok with you?
-if not why did i copy and paste the whole damn thing?
OK moving on...What grade are you in?
-no, piano grade 3, im secondary 4 not any sissy grade system u hav in the united states
Do you like me?
-no, unless u are a gay i cant, but i hate gays, so either way its no
Hehehe ok....
-ok yourself, trust u to ask this kinda nonsense
Well bye, thanks for wasting your time!!!
- i realised, before u leave, can u tell me your house address? i would LOVE to burn it down.
er. he left... haha
-blogging, or u wont see this
Oh sounds like fun...so...what's your name...?
-tuck yan ( the great is my er... english name)
Hahaha your name sucks...
-haha and u dont even hav one
Eh whatever. So what's your favorite band?
-none, bands all suck balls
Cool. How Tall you you?
-wat you you, if i got it right, im 168cm
How many pillows do you sleep with?
-2, you?
Do you really care what people think?
-if i consider them people, yes i will care
What kind of music do you listen to?
-none, maybe classical
Have you ever met Abe Lincoln?
-er.. might, in heaven
Aw You're no fun! And don't call me a bitch!
-i wont, cauz u are a guy and that makes u a BAS third
Haha, anyway, what color hair do you have?
-its black, and its red infront ( its natural damnit )
Cool, so I assume your taking this because your bored right?
-loser, wrong, its because of bad influence from blogs
That's what I thought...Loser...
- wat the hell? how did u guess that u were a loser?
Haha, just kidding. What color are your eyes?
-they are brown, duh, no one has black eyes btw..
So, who do you have a crush on?
-u sure u want to noe? ask my frens wil you?
Why is the sky blue, and don't give me some scientific explanation mister..
- the sky is blue because of the reduction in frequency of the whitelight when the light passes through the atmosphere, resulting is a different "coloured" light.
What are you listening to now?
-noise from the Tv
How about now?
- * repeat*
Cool...
-ice cream/? the air conditioner isnt switched on u noe...
Are you wearing rings?
-onion rings maybe
Can you loan me 100 bucks?
-when u loan me 101bucks
Oh ok...What kinda clothes do you wear?
-why? getting clothes for me during christmas? i dont noe you!
Why did you answer that?
-dunno, why did u ask that, u moron
Haha ok. Um...Best Green Day album?
-none, green day sucks balls
And if you don't like them, why!!!!
- wats the deal, ask anybody they'll scream in your face, the same thing
Uh well fine then!! Few more questions. Is that ok with you?
-if not why did i copy and paste the whole damn thing?
OK moving on...What grade are you in?
-no, piano grade 3, im secondary 4 not any sissy grade system u hav in the united states
Do you like me?
-no, unless u are a gay i cant, but i hate gays, so either way its no
Hehehe ok....
-ok yourself, trust u to ask this kinda nonsense
Well bye, thanks for wasting your time!!!
- i realised, before u leave, can u tell me your house address? i would LOVE to burn it down.
er. he left... haha
hehe im being gay, forgive me
So, how are you..whatcha up to?
-blogging, or u wont see this
Oh sounds like fun...so...what's your name...?
-tuck yan ( the great is my er... english name)
Hahaha your name sucks...
-haha and u dont even hav one
Eh whatever. So what's your favorite band?
-none, bands all suck balls
Cool. How Tall you you?
-wat you you, if i got it right, im 168cm
How many pillows do you sleep with?
-2, you?
Do you really care what people think?
-if i consider them people, yes i will care
What kind of music do you listen to?
-none, maybe classical
Have you ever met Abe Lincoln?
-er.. might, in heaven
Aw You're no fun! And don't call me a bitch!
-i wont, cauz u are a guy and that makes u a BAS third
Haha, anyway, what color hair do you have?
-its black, and its red infront ( its natural damnit )
Cool, so I assume your taking this because your bored right?
-loser, wrong, its because of bad influence from blogs
That's what I thought...Loser...
- wat the hell? how did u guess that u were a loser?
Haha, just kidding. What color are your eyes?
-they are brown, duh, no one has black eyes btw..
So, who do you have a crush on?
-u sure u want to noe? ask my frens wil you?
Why is the sky blue, and don't give me some scientific explanation mister..
- the sky is blue because of the reduction in frequency of the whitelight when the light passes through the atmosphere, resulting is a different "coloured" light.
What are you listening to now?
-noise from the Tv
How about now?
- * repeat*
Cool...
-ice cream/? the air conditioner isnt switched on u noe...
Are you wearing rings?
-onion rings maybe
Can you loan me 100 bucks?
-when u loan me 101bucks
Oh ok...What kinda clothes do you wear?
-why? getting clothes for me during christmas? i dont noe you!
Why did you answer that?
-dunno, why did u ask that, u moron
Haha ok. Um...Best Green Day album?
-none, green day sucks balls
And if you don't like them, why!!!!
- wats the deal, ask anybody they'll scream in your face, the same thing
Uh well fine then!! Few more questions. Is that ok with you?
-if not why did i copy and paste the whole damn thing?
OK moving on...What grade are you in?
-no, piano grade 3, im secondary 4 not any sissy grade system u hav in the united states
Do you like me?
-no, unless u are a gay i cant, but i hate gays, so either way its no
Hehehe ok....
-ok yourself, trust u to ask this kinda nonsense
Well bye, thanks for wasting your time!!!
- i realised, before u leave, can u tell me your house address? i would LOVE to burn it down.
er. he left... haha
-blogging, or u wont see this
Oh sounds like fun...so...what's your name...?
-tuck yan ( the great is my er... english name)
Hahaha your name sucks...
-haha and u dont even hav one
Eh whatever. So what's your favorite band?
-none, bands all suck balls
Cool. How Tall you you?
-wat you you, if i got it right, im 168cm
How many pillows do you sleep with?
-2, you?
Do you really care what people think?
-if i consider them people, yes i will care
What kind of music do you listen to?
-none, maybe classical
Have you ever met Abe Lincoln?
-er.. might, in heaven
Aw You're no fun! And don't call me a bitch!
-i wont, cauz u are a guy and that makes u a BAS third
Haha, anyway, what color hair do you have?
-its black, and its red infront ( its natural damnit )
Cool, so I assume your taking this because your bored right?
-loser, wrong, its because of bad influence from blogs
That's what I thought...Loser...
- wat the hell? how did u guess that u were a loser?
Haha, just kidding. What color are your eyes?
-they are brown, duh, no one has black eyes btw..
So, who do you have a crush on?
-u sure u want to noe? ask my frens wil you?
Why is the sky blue, and don't give me some scientific explanation mister..
- the sky is blue because of the reduction in frequency of the whitelight when the light passes through the atmosphere, resulting is a different "coloured" light.
What are you listening to now?
-noise from the Tv
How about now?
- * repeat*
Cool...
-ice cream/? the air conditioner isnt switched on u noe...
Are you wearing rings?
-onion rings maybe
Can you loan me 100 bucks?
-when u loan me 101bucks
Oh ok...What kinda clothes do you wear?
-why? getting clothes for me during christmas? i dont noe you!
Why did you answer that?
-dunno, why did u ask that, u moron
Haha ok. Um...Best Green Day album?
-none, green day sucks balls
And if you don't like them, why!!!!
- wats the deal, ask anybody they'll scream in your face, the same thing
Uh well fine then!! Few more questions. Is that ok with you?
-if not why did i copy and paste the whole damn thing?
OK moving on...What grade are you in?
-no, piano grade 3, im secondary 4 not any sissy grade system u hav in the united states
Do you like me?
-no, unless u are a gay i cant, but i hate gays, so either way its no
Hehehe ok....
-ok yourself, trust u to ask this kinda nonsense
Well bye, thanks for wasting your time!!!
- i realised, before u leave, can u tell me your house address? i would LOVE to burn it down.
er. he left... haha
Friday, December 08, 2006
shit
they say that when u serve God, thats when the devil attacks you.
how true.
was doing some camp stuff today. my bro had to say something as ass as this. " hey dad said that the mouse is screwed up, due to clicking too much while playing games"
i couldnt disagree more, cauz mouse is meant for clicking, not for spoiling pettishly under a few little clicks, so i said " he's just being unreasonable"
and bro had to come and continue with this unreasonable nasty shit " anyway, next time he asks or scolds, i'll just refer it to you"
i mean its like WTH! and then he proceeds to bull shit and crap, and just give me alot more unreasonable crap.
then finally i thought, fine, let him tell dad watever he likes, a mouse spoiling from clicking too much is like keyboard breaking down from blogging too often. and so here i am, bloggin this nonsense after im done with the church camp meeting agenda.. wat to do? life sucks.
i shall sidetrack a little to this chain mail.
"let see the devil try to break this powerful prayer chain"
oh yeah? if im not wrong, chain mails are used to obtain email adresses, which are then harvested and sold in markets to companies so that they can either send their porno mail or advertisements to people who simply forwarded a email just because the mail made people who break it appear like they are the devil's fanatics.
screw it, if ppl are out there, trying to make money out of christianity, i say screw off fools!
ok lets say something which wenjie would love to say all the time. dont be mean to any people, cause being mean means nothing, and since it does nothing, why be an idiot an do something for nothing?
how true.
was doing some camp stuff today. my bro had to say something as ass as this. " hey dad said that the mouse is screwed up, due to clicking too much while playing games"
i couldnt disagree more, cauz mouse is meant for clicking, not for spoiling pettishly under a few little clicks, so i said " he's just being unreasonable"
and bro had to come and continue with this unreasonable nasty shit " anyway, next time he asks or scolds, i'll just refer it to you"
i mean its like WTH! and then he proceeds to bull shit and crap, and just give me alot more unreasonable crap.
then finally i thought, fine, let him tell dad watever he likes, a mouse spoiling from clicking too much is like keyboard breaking down from blogging too often. and so here i am, bloggin this nonsense after im done with the church camp meeting agenda.. wat to do? life sucks.
i shall sidetrack a little to this chain mail.
"let see the devil try to break this powerful prayer chain"
oh yeah? if im not wrong, chain mails are used to obtain email adresses, which are then harvested and sold in markets to companies so that they can either send their porno mail or advertisements to people who simply forwarded a email just because the mail made people who break it appear like they are the devil's fanatics.
screw it, if ppl are out there, trying to make money out of christianity, i say screw off fools!
ok lets say something which wenjie would love to say all the time. dont be mean to any people, cause being mean means nothing, and since it does nothing, why be an idiot an do something for nothing?
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
posting for fun
yes, i havent been blogging for like numerous days, sorry la! I've not been going through eventful days, i have been staring at my homework, without displaying the effort to put it right. ok i already ran out of things to right, so i shall start being gay and rant and complain and be a little kiddo.
first, the church camp, publicity! hey you all are responsible for numerous matters, wakey! pls its only 3 more weeks to camp, without a good effort from you all, things won't work out, no no
second, geog project! oi wilson dont lidddat leh, hurry tell me when u cannot come so we can settle on some sexy date to do the thing... and wait.. which question did we choose? Zzzz
third, my ic! its not done, and its just going to take up one whole chunk of my day. this sucks, why isit so tedious to go do an ic?
fourth, homework! ok this sucks, at the beginning of the holidays, there was 100 math questions, now, still 100 questions!
fifth, this sucks. ( no more!)
ok now that u've witness the lack of content in my blog, why dont u fill it up by dating me out?
ok watever gtg, cauz im murdering myself over typing this shitty post.
first, the church camp, publicity! hey you all are responsible for numerous matters, wakey! pls its only 3 more weeks to camp, without a good effort from you all, things won't work out, no no
second, geog project! oi wilson dont lidddat leh, hurry tell me when u cannot come so we can settle on some sexy date to do the thing... and wait.. which question did we choose? Zzzz
third, my ic! its not done, and its just going to take up one whole chunk of my day. this sucks, why isit so tedious to go do an ic?
fourth, homework! ok this sucks, at the beginning of the holidays, there was 100 math questions, now, still 100 questions!
fifth, this sucks. ( no more!)
ok now that u've witness the lack of content in my blog, why dont u fill it up by dating me out?
ok watever gtg, cauz im murdering myself over typing this shitty post.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
fsdgfgdgd
after the craziness, reality steps in, it places a halt, it stops the fun, it makes u feel, you.
and that really makes me feel useless, so empty, so nothing.. ok fine before i get emo, lets have some... fun!
lets see, the programme for yesterday was... kids' camp, kena multiple gang bangs at the science center's waterworks, lan game, boomerang rescue, lost and found hp, and finally, climbing over the road's fencing.
kids' camp was so so, i still could not bring myself to accept those isolent p2s, full of themselves and kinda almost screwed my boomerang upside down...
ok we went to science center.. and i could already hear the "boooooo!" yes i noe the science center sucks.. but then.. the waterworks own man! so watery, so fun.. playing with all the kids and then they were like.. ganging all the youth helpers, stalking about in packs and dragging us into the water fountain and stuff.. haha those poor fools, i could wrestle with more that 6 of them in a go. then disaster striked.. i fell on some guy's stomach, he was like.. curled up and rolling about miserably... ugh.. wat hav i done?!
ok after the camp was over, we went and had this crazy idea.. go play lan.. so, fullfilling it, we played abt 2 hours, frm 6-8.. ugh.. boy were i hungry!
but instead of going home straight away, torsten had to be stupid and threw the boomerang up the bus-stop.. the thought of going back to the lousy science center to get another one simply just brought me to tears.. so i thought decisively... "guys, we're gonna rescue the boomerang" haha and can u believe it? i managed to get a ladder from a nearby shop.. and torsten went and climbed up the bus-stop.. there was just this huge crowd of onlookers.. but heck, we arent breaking the rules, just maybe, we could have broken the headlines... haha so after we got the thing down, we were dying to get home...
on the bus was havoc.. haha we were playing the boomerang at the second floor..
when we got of the bus, torsten was like oh shit oh shit.. then he tried to memorise the bus's number... which was like so surprising and watnot.. this could have been a crazy day, but watever was that for?
oh.. the great reveal, he kinda lost his handphone, the poor thing... haha
and wat?! it was actually in his bag... arent u a genius in keeping your stuff, torsten?
ok look, words cannot do this injustice, but i dont have a picture.. so.. bear with this.
the road had been fenced up, just today.. in the afternoon i guess...
deciding that climbing over the fence would require less effort than walking a distance down the the not-in-operation-YET traffic light, we climbed over the fence, just to see a police car which isnt a police car zooming by...
hmm.. ok recalling the events just made me estatic enough to dont get emo.. so i guess we're kinda lucky here, arent we???
and that really makes me feel useless, so empty, so nothing.. ok fine before i get emo, lets have some... fun!
lets see, the programme for yesterday was... kids' camp, kena multiple gang bangs at the science center's waterworks, lan game, boomerang rescue, lost and found hp, and finally, climbing over the road's fencing.
kids' camp was so so, i still could not bring myself to accept those isolent p2s, full of themselves and kinda almost screwed my boomerang upside down...
ok we went to science center.. and i could already hear the "boooooo!" yes i noe the science center sucks.. but then.. the waterworks own man! so watery, so fun.. playing with all the kids and then they were like.. ganging all the youth helpers, stalking about in packs and dragging us into the water fountain and stuff.. haha those poor fools, i could wrestle with more that 6 of them in a go. then disaster striked.. i fell on some guy's stomach, he was like.. curled up and rolling about miserably... ugh.. wat hav i done?!
ok after the camp was over, we went and had this crazy idea.. go play lan.. so, fullfilling it, we played abt 2 hours, frm 6-8.. ugh.. boy were i hungry!
but instead of going home straight away, torsten had to be stupid and threw the boomerang up the bus-stop.. the thought of going back to the lousy science center to get another one simply just brought me to tears.. so i thought decisively... "guys, we're gonna rescue the boomerang" haha and can u believe it? i managed to get a ladder from a nearby shop.. and torsten went and climbed up the bus-stop.. there was just this huge crowd of onlookers.. but heck, we arent breaking the rules, just maybe, we could have broken the headlines... haha so after we got the thing down, we were dying to get home...
on the bus was havoc.. haha we were playing the boomerang at the second floor..
when we got of the bus, torsten was like oh shit oh shit.. then he tried to memorise the bus's number... which was like so surprising and watnot.. this could have been a crazy day, but watever was that for?
oh.. the great reveal, he kinda lost his handphone, the poor thing... haha
and wat?! it was actually in his bag... arent u a genius in keeping your stuff, torsten?
ok look, words cannot do this injustice, but i dont have a picture.. so.. bear with this.
the road had been fenced up, just today.. in the afternoon i guess...
deciding that climbing over the fence would require less effort than walking a distance down the the not-in-operation-YET traffic light, we climbed over the fence, just to see a police car which isnt a police car zooming by...
hmm.. ok recalling the events just made me estatic enough to dont get emo.. so i guess we're kinda lucky here, arent we???
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