now wat abt the alt-ctrl-delete and end task?

now wat abt the alt-ctrl-delete and end task?

if life was but a computer, the first think i'd end task would be homework.

homework is rather distracting, homework is boring, it sucks, its distasteful.

the second thing i would end task would probably be human relationships. while they're fun and nice when they turn out well, they drive you to your grave when they dont turn out well. then again, running away is nothing close to a solution, its better to take pain in blasts sometimes.

ahh.. it never gets better, this afternoon, i juz didnt feel great, my mum yelled at me, recalling abt previous unhappy events such as not being friendly with my classmates, my NCC mates juz really, weighed me down. i guess running away isnt anything good, but can i juz take a break?

at the end of the day,
though sometimes is so much better to let go,
but only through trials do we really learn
the facts of life, the merciless insights.
i guess i'll take my break, till
im ready to start all over again. Everyone's tired
hanging too tight, would break your bones
letting go, could be a
better way to overcome your woes,
im gonna do that, what about you
wat would u choose?

dont we really wish, that we could juz click ctrl-z?

sometimes when we make mistakes, we really wish we could juz press ctrl-Z. hn.. however in life there aint no keyboard
there is a control button
there is a Z key.
but when u click them both, u juz sink deeper into misery. why?
things arent meant to be left hanging in the air. things arent meant to be left unpatched. i thank sir joel for acting as a mediator to help me patch my scarred ties with the rest of the NCC members. its non of his business, really, but yet he bothers. thinking that its no big deal? well wrong! when a mediator does a bad job, he gets bloody murder screamed in his face, whacked both sides. impressed now? thanks joel.

however that was not all it was gonna be, today something great happened. then all was lost when a cryptic sentence was mentioned, which i caught while he hanged in the air, slowly dissipating, leaving me a utter confusion. i guess i'd like to explain, but who would lend me their ears, think abt it, if u were in my shoes, wouldnt u juz wanna press, rewind?
i dont say it, doesnt mean i dont want it.
i cant take it, for better things to come
i gave up my opportunity at hand. u are made
for me, and i am made for u, now it doesnt feel,
the way it felt before.
if it was a farewell sonata, do u wanna see my tears?
but if a smile is wat u want, guess i'll still give u my all
just like how i did before.
since a long time ago,
yesterday, today, and forever more.

my dear blog almost died.

hm... havent blogged for a long time, so heres to the revival..
gosh, geog is a confusing bunch of gibberish to me.. confusing nonsense fused together. we won our debate. obviously MASS media wasnt responsible for the deterioration in the social values of modern societies.... and we beat them hands down... hehehe.. but, band D wont be making it into the finals, because band E bagged two victories, for us, 1 only.. isnt that sad?ZZZ.. ok anyway.. tiredd, blog another day, i'll be backk...

hm.. i guess we juz know it ourselves

nothing's doing... getting a new phone soon, but as u can sense from the mood integrated in this sentence, im not really very excited, cauz the phone would juz be some thing good enough to shut me up.
something funny, we lost our debate.. why? u sure u wanna noe?
i guess its the teacher's and the judge's fault... although our side was stand was highly unfavourable, we put on a really great fight, and i dare say our points were way stronger, and obviously backed up with strong support. the other parties points were super numerous, but yet, they left all their points hanging in the air. AND I MUST SAY, I COULDNT STAND JESSICA AND BAOXIAN bitching away, its true we must provoke the opposition during a debate, but not by metamorphing the entire place into a gossip parlour where people juz sit around and sound out gossips by conjuring the most disgusting voice they could ever muster.. people, its a debate, not bitching session, wake up, dont let this happen if we see u all in the finals. ZZZZ.. next topic is also, again, unfavourable. we're suppose to oppose the fact that mass media is responsible for the degrading of moral values.. ZZZ lucks is always on the opponent's side... why?

nothing much.. lol dota exploits..

tada!
ok lets see.. this few days have been rather boring.. losing dotA matches, getting into petty quarels... lets see a picture of me and mence ganking lennard and keith in their fountain..
ok watever, its not so exciting, look at the amt of "miss" at the fountain...
and anyway, keith died already, and lennard died really quick.. haha
OWNAGE!?

ok church camp isnt going on verywell.. had a mini meeting today, got kinda criticised like nuts, and we altered the plan to their liking, got out, and got scolded again, because apparently our original plan was more preferable.. ZZZ... wat the hell...

look on the bright side,
NAPFA is gonna be GOLD
math test marks are gonna be sky high.
i can kinda control the amt of money i use everyday better, for short, management...

ok....

today, as i saw a new msn windown appear, a thought came to my mind.. " ok ok, which hottie juz added me on msn?"
to my chocking horror, and untter disgust, it was THE GAY ZESTIN!!! taaddaaa.. thinking of the past encouunter with darth t**t*s, a ripple of chill crept down my spine. Wat's his business now, coming back? ... revenge? back for his "girl friend"? ( which i figured out was no possible)
hm.. digusting, i'lll leave this thought at the backyard of my brain, and think abt it some other time...

tomorrow's math test, apparently the test seems to be going to be really easy, but then again, proudness comes before a fall...
NCC.. ah.. boring, no gym, no post no money to buy snacks... ZZZZ... borrriinnggg tomorrow got 3 photoshoots, NCC, followed closely, media.
then of course there is the one for the school hottesst guy ( which is not true, so it boils down to 2 photoshoots)
ok just a random quote: once churchhill was drunk, a lady who thought that he was drunk, went and told him so. turning around, churchhill said," u madam however is ugly, whereas for my condition, it'll be over next morning, u however, will still be ugly."
wasnt that interesting?
yet, interesting stuff, could probably be yet another
phantasm of life... ZZZZ

that word brought me fear.. why? its juz the over open kinda style, what the, how did he... wat the hell?
and im juz sitting down in my comfort zone, taking things for granted, whispering to myself, sacrificed must be made, but better things to come...
easily said than done... it could be so much more fun, if i could just talk, so much more fun if i dont have to pull myself back...

arggh.. watever, am i supposed to care? but i cant juz dont care. cauz
im feeling alone,
for this confusion,
aint leavin me so..
trying to have fun,
fooling around where i shouldnt,
cracking a pun,
it didnt sound well,
maybe i should juz ,
run away from it all..


run.. run.. run..
sounds like wat im gonna do on thursday, running back on the similar avenue, life's juz running back again, back again...
2.4, i've taken it before, somehow, i'd be taking it again
there's no need to explain, he had the upper hand,
i lost my records, u can run or juz break down and sob..




ahhah i was juz joking, life's not that tough... its juz the hw today i guess..
for every bad thing, there's always a thousand pleasant stuff to work towards, with 1/5 of my life gone, this isnt the time to sit around and complain, not the time to cower up in a corner, its life, afterall, it'd be in history soon, and
another phantasm revealed...

ok well done, the smarty blogger spell check ruined my previous post.... arrgh slap blogger.. ok anyway, church anniversary went on quite well..
we went swensens after the whole thing, and party till.. ten?


tiredd... hungry.. blogger ate my post and i've
got no post to devour. isnt that IMBA-ishly unfair?

its been 40 years, yet, isit because im chinese speaking, isit because im a methodist, or isit because im situated in queenstown, which makes me who i am?
no no of course not, im a church, with worship sevices.. err... im afraid thats all.
what if im gonna shift, say to ang mo kio, what if i have decided to abandon chinese? or, what if i have decided to convert into a presbyterian? So, if that happens, am i still, me?

that serie of thoughts, added with a tune, was presented today. I hope it'll cause the people to reflect and ponder, about what is makes our church our church, what indentifies our church and makes it unique.( i hope its not the complacent elderlies, not the indifferent adults, and the youths who arent sure what they're doing in church)


ok anyway... here's wat i call fellowship, building of bonds quickly over the course of 2 days, when everyone is unfamiliar with anyone else... impressive? we're already a BIG family!



that is the CAC folks, thats right, chinese annual conference, youths. maybe about 5% of the total amt, heh, big enough or not? can find me or not?

haiz..

NCC was rather boring today, before that, i must mention about my A math test... it was horrid, and i flunk the whole darn thing... hehz.. it was on functions, however, i really didnt remember anything about it. NCC was well.. quite fun though, considering its my first time slacking.. but i didnt get to go gym.. cauz it was too packed..
and well, if u slacked too much, u'd juz get punished very hard, which happened to us, in case no one actually knew, my batch if one hell of a failure bunch, which just disgraced the school's good reputation by returning with only 6 2nd sergeants.

ah.. today was rather boring.. think abt it,3 a math periods... ah.. but..
my group won the class debate!! wooo! we're going to challenge the other classes soon..isnt this exciting or wat?
haha.. ok anyway, let me repeat, this is my first blog ever and.. hm.. isnt it nice or wat?
can i have more tags on the board?

tomorrow is class and media photoshoot... thursday is NCC photoshoot...
ahh.. so much crap, when's the interclass games gonna start? cant wait to win the other classes in frisbee..
till here..

woohoooo! finally, my blog

ok.. i dont noe exactly wat to say, this is merely a test.. hehz