ughh!

today gp paper was actually pretty easy. You know, sometimes i wonder why i dont just be a good boy and do crime and punishment or mass media.
I did this topic : "religion has lost its significance in the world today".

DAMN. my friends said my points were incredible, i thought they were, too.
But now, from hindsight, i feel as if im gonna fail, and fail like an arse.
Why? I forgot that i totally forgot to consider defining the word significance.

sheez. even now i dont know what significance means. So i guess my essay's
hanging by a thread? yeah... something like that.
Then came compre. Ah screw it, for compre im never confident.
I always interpret wrongly... why? This can prove detrimental in my life.

misinterpretation... sigh.

well. a few considerations are hanging dead in my head.
First: should i just study oligopoly and mkt failure?
second: should i still try for an A in math? Will the investment be worth it?
Third: should i try harder for chem.. i mean i studied quite abit but its been days... and i have yet to study the earlier topics.
Fourth: physics... i sense that im doomed.

well, if theres anything i worry... its those.
I'm glad worship leading was last week, if not i'd be horribly distracted again.

speaking of which, it actually went quite well!
Well, merely considering the screwup where one of my songs disapparated, one would say it was an epic fail.
But somehow, the screwup was like a divine move, removing a song i forcefully added.
Thus what remained was the perfect combination...
and indeed, as the saying goes "if you want the song to touch others, let it touch you first".
Indeed, it has been great singing "once again" once and once again in my head.



Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
Many times I've wondered at Your gift of life
And I'm in that place once again

I'm in that place once again

And once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life

Now You are exalted to the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I marvel at Your saving grace
And I'm full of praise once again

I'm full of praise once again

Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross
Thank You for the cross, my Friend

i rarely post lyrics. But this is life, once again and once again.
Somehow the amazing grace brings me back once again, again and again.

There's something else stuck in my head.
A question, a question i want to ask very much.
Its a question with 2 answers and only one can answer.

Its stuck in my head, its making it ache. I'm dying to get it out...
But im afraid to know the answers, both are feared.
I can't concentrate and i can't study, this thought is tormenting and paralysing me.

how i wish my head listens when i say stop.