freeze!

In moments like this, i wish the time stopped.
Then i'll wander around this island of singapore.

I can revisit places i had wonderful memories.

i can visit my friends. If they're smiling, i can enjoy their smiles.
if they're unhappy, i can set things right for them.
Amidst the freeze, i can lay the foundations for warmth.

I wish time will stop right now.
I wish time and tide waits for me.
I want to waddle back into the past, i want to find myself.
Sometimes i feel as though i've lost myself, long buried in the past.


but time will not wait for me... it will move.

The motion of time brings sadness away, but the uncertainty of future keeps coming.
The onslaught of doubt will keep coming, will keep regenerating.
Will keep coming, crawling back.

Recently i found a blog.
It was a haven of innocence. Guess what the introduction was?
Hi, im ******,
& im thankful for what i have.

well maybe some people do lead lives without problems.

But at the very basics, life is life.
"bad" lives, "good" lives, all lives.
just because life feels shitty, it doesnt therefore become a lesser life.

no wonder people say "make the best of your time".
life is whatever you make of it.

hm.. life is like the most flexible piece of clay. Clay that can be glazed and yet remoulded.
Clay that's kneaded and toasted. Tossed and turned in the turbulence of life.

Turbulence is always there, where do you direct it to?

If i want my life back...

If i want it back i better be sure.
So far in life, i get anything i truly wanted. Im sure it'll be the same for life.