in the dark

If you read this, know that i regret leaving this out.
Again i find myself, tortured by an old trick.

Back then when i was in sec2.
There's another reason why i left her.
Its simple, its not complex.
It sounds foolish, it sounds ridiculous.

She was a non-christian.

Some "Christians" dont give 2 hoots about this.
But to me, this an impossible barrier.

no compromises, no keeping one eye closed.

These days i've been tormented.
Your messages were so cold- but i said to myself:
This is your chance to free yourself.

and guess what happens?

i wont elaborate.
I'm stuck, i'm chained to you.
You dont look like you like it, and for me im already feeling repulsive about it.
I shouldn't enjoy it, and finally i don't.

I dont know how to face up to you.
All these things really really makes me want to run away.

I'm unwilling to keep you in the dark.
But who knows how you'd respond?

"you're just thinking too much.."?

an answer i grew old on hearing.

not every storm in life happens in the teacup.