you could say..

you could say that i wasted the tuition fees
or that maybe i will pay it back in the future.
or maybe it was just a screw up
or maybe i just wasn't meant to

in any, and every way
i flunked my A math paper. flunk it hard.
a crest before a trough, a horst followed by a graben.

yes, that was geog.
the nostalgic defeat.
to be beaten again in my game.
obviously i wouldn't dream of it.
or am in desperate zeal to accept it.

i lost the feeling of winning since that day.
please dont tell me i'll be like this forever.