a lonely walk home.

today.
i had tuition at 1. i know this sounds boring - its because it is.
did functions and permutation and combination.
basically the exams have been screwed up.
yes screwed.

i screwed a test one after another.
my parents don't make noise, shuuush its because they don't know.
my dad just asked me if i wanted a little something to eat.
thats just like him.
im glad to hear, but i didnt smile. its just because i had nothing to create it.
not that im ungrateful or i'd rather emo than make someone's day with a smile but.
i just couldn't do it.

and you know what? you're in for some rubbish from me, a whole shitload of an essay where i'll kick yours and make you pay.
actually i could do this to everyone else, with the name changed.
honestly. what kinda warped concept do you harbor about friendships?
isit the reason why many of you claim that friends don't last forever.
sighing away and PUSHING YOUR BLAME aside.
right. smart aleks.
there's some reason why some are friends and why some aren't
i follow your dictionary, when you say its a friend, i say its a friend.
but i knew better.
i knew better.

maybe you weaklings should just taste it and tell me.
you think you guys are miserable or have more RIGHTS to emo around.
be realistic.
if you have got the right, even bill gates has the rights.
everyone has their bitter pie. dont always think that the grass on the other side is greener
or that their bitter pies actually tastes sweet.

sometimes my friends really shock me. they have so much to handle. but yet they seem perfectly normal.
what about those, who come and go, like you, you and you?
why bother reading my blog if its only for your interest? finding bits of scrap where you could gain from, or things that i blog about which concerns you.
if you're gonna read this like its some playground where GG gossips or lies that turns you on pops out. then heres the advice.
turn around and go screw yourselves.
people who read this blog is supposed to care for me, not for themselves.
i read blogs for the very same reason.
i read because i care, not because i hope for my name to appear everywhere.

its been ages since i've said this.
and i guess no one knows better than keith.... right keith?
you bunch of fakers and illusionists ( joash, mence jeremy - its none of you guys)
search youselves before throwing this shitty attitude at me.

to think my tears dropped when you said you'd regard me as a friend.
even if i will not reciprocate.
if this is the friendship you refer to
i'll build a time machine just to get back into the past and claim those tears back.

you know how it feels like to be cheated?
dont tell me if you cried because you think the post refers to you.
dont ever, i won't care.