the message

hey guys. sorry for the spook yesterday.
well, i'll say everything, right here in this post.
*drumro....*

well, sometime ago, at this hour of yesterday.

you guys still were friends by calling, hardly friends by nature.
i call you all friends, for thats the term
but honestly i could never feel how friends were like at all
im not in your classes, infact i no longer play in your styles
the clever witty tuck yan.. guessed he died as the year went past

know who i am now

i dont know what im doing, i'm just trying to tell you all that
if you're still there for me now, you guys are really great
even if not, i'd like to thank for the past memories
you all etched in my life, they were peaceful, never traumatizes me
well. dont worry, this is a note to live, not a note for suicide.


well.
i dont know how i can hold the fort against you dear
but i know i wont last for 2 more days.
as i finished my Amath tuition today
i picked up my phone to share it with you
not untill i've selected your name
have i found out that our friendship had been due
keeping the phone, i didnt want it to be in vain.
so i thought i'd let you know
that there was never once i could really let go
but want and will is a different circle
sometimes there are just no exceptions