i had my lies

i had my lies, secrets i had to keep.
i had a cold metallic heart, a place out of reach.
sometimes i thought i could fathom the future
what i failed to feel, was that precious process.

i liked to blame it all on myself, gaining pity
after all, all i torn the picture, what you said is right
i thought i could, fathom the future
now all i can see, is the previous arrangement

i wasnt with you, i was with her.
yet this picture was painted in fear
i dont know what to do, this chance is to be relinquished
i dont know why, but the picture's no longer clear.

if i said i cried and i teared.
maybe the most i could get, was a cold "screw off"
i dont know what im doing, i'm lost in here
im lost in the world i created in fear.