after quite long, the thought finally went through

in setting in, it stirred up dust
funny thoughts just filled my mind.
its like smoke, i cant chase it away
im just dreaming my time, thoughts of that kind.

was considering since i promised
if we stood level on the balance
i feared for the day, where i saw with my eyes
the balance of scales, i fell out of line

what if you were too good
and im but tainting mud.
i'd spoil your beauty, waste your time
what would i do, if that is a fact?

would i retreat again, and make you wait
would i rush into things
and watch them broken by fate?
its an awful crossroad. im broken im sad.
im upset, dirt burried me in hate.

today i heard, about something too true
a love relationship, is a ghost encounter
many spoke of it
yet who managed to really experience it?
who can truly recite that phantom?

i dont know, i think i can
it was painful and it proves the truth
i know i was never really good to you
when i stood up, matters were worse
disappointments.

i dont what'll happen
after i go through, that hole in that O'
i dont want to determine, foresee
if your would still be there for me.

im tired of thinking
tired of anticipating
if everything would follow
that path of my will.

its high time i design my future
its time i truly try
to piece all the lovely together.