he speaks

He speaks to me in songs. He speaks to me as I sing.

I think I've been careless. The hectic days, the days filled with human company has made me forget God. But empty days are returning, empty nonetheless hectic.

There was this gloom in me for much of this week (oh wait, not much of this week has passed) and I couldn't figure out what went wrong. I was just feeling so stressed and also so dissatisfied at the same time.

Then I went for worship rehearsal in the night. The songs were about loving, choosing and following God. Turns out the verse for this week's sermon is taken from Deuteronomy 30:15-20. Perhaps many of you may find this particular portion familiar...

15 “See, I have set before you today life and [a]prosperity, and death and [b]adversity; 16 in that I command you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in His ways and to keep His commandments and His statutes and His judgments, that you may live and multiply, and that the Lord your God may bless you in the land where you are entering to possess it. 17 But if your heart turns away and you will not obey, but are drawn away and worship other gods and serve them, 18 I declare to you today that you shall surely perish. You will not prolong your days in the land where you are crossing the Jordan to enter [c]and possess it. 19 I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. So choose life in order that you may live, you and your [d]descendants, 20 by loving the Lord your God, by obeying His voice, and by holding fast to Him; for [e]this is your life and the length of your days, [f]that you may live in the land which the Lord swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, to give them.”

and it made sense. The gloom which didn't go away was a gracious reminder that I have not been choosing God.

God calls out to us in verse 19. He sets both life and death but He says, "so choose life".
So... I choose life.