Half Hearted

Sitting in to this sermon now. “Behold, the church, an entity bound for suffering.”

He says: the christians today make Jesus’ life to be too unique. Yes it is unique but it is by no means exclusive. 
Many see His life as such:
He dies, I live
He forsook, I inherit
His is savior and so I’m saved

And in all of this there is no real relationship. While the story of a touching savior may move me to tears it has no bearing on my life right here, right now. 

I can already see where he is going with this. We are to carry our crosses daily, to know Christ in His sufferings. In this we have a relationship with Him, a relationship deeply grounded in proper understanding of what it took to rid our sins.

Sigh, and what about me? If we are called to suffer then there shouldn’t be any talk about how much or how far “it seems right” for me to suffer. 
But there is. 
In my mind now there is.

“Help me to love You O Lord, but please, only that far.”