But why, really?

Perhaps I ought to be more forthcoming.
But even though I'm really busy and have little time for it
The reason why I can't have a girlfriend is because

because..
She will become the most un-christian thing in my life.

I'm bad at putting God first in my life.
As of now I'm having it easy.
There's nothing I really have a taste for, that I'd cling desperately to in my life.

How do lovers do it? Have they all achieved it?
I can't imagine how God will still be first, I don't have faith that I can do it.
Of course this is classical leaning-on-your-own-strength.
In the end we conquer by christ, supernaturally.
I know, I KNOW!

Oh Lord,
Forgive me. Let me work up from the lesser things.