CNY guesswork

There was something else on my mind but now it's just
"oh my friend, was that for me?"

If it wasn't, well, nonetheless relevant.
We're... almost there, almost thursday now. Not to say my mind hasn't sprung plans of sabotage.
God I thank you that I'm incredibly busy, so busy that I want to slap myself for all the trivial smiles on my face when I lazed at home the past 2 days.

Still, why don't you test for my obedience when I'm thoroughly free? Hahaha

Anyway, I'm back in U town now, repenting over the lack of discipline I had over CNY. Still, I don't think it's that straightforward.
I kinda know why I never quite studied much back in secondary school and jc. It's just how it works between me and my brother. We're always distracting one another. This CNY was great in the sense that we had time for a game or 2 over the superb new fibre internet, talked alot about many things, watched movies and shows on.. that superb new fibre (okay, it's starting to look like a curse, thank God I live in U town now).
But really, we were just pretty unproductive. Don't know when to stop.

Though I miss the carefree (yeah funny I found this CNY strangely carefree) spending of days and will love to spend another one away, I can't. So here I am.

I don't like that I'm "returning" to discipline. That reeks of irony.

As the workload piles up, I clearly see the forked road again.
Cling to God and it will be glorious. Bless me, let me live radically again.