walk, blameless

Just a random thought really.

I was recounting my conversation with this really queer friend of mine. Such a lazy afternoon. Failed to fulfil idealistic expectations of my academic efficiency. Again.

But not bad. I'm still reading. This module's all foreign to me. For now.

Anyway, the conversation. I can't quite remember now.

But well, we were talking about her involvement in campus crusades. Knowing her character, I was guessing she wasn't quite involved... that she haven't been crusading around.. much.
Suddenly the mood changed, not that it was genuinely sudden because I saw it coming.

What's wrong with that? She asks.
Are you like judging me or something?

And what's wrong with that? I retorted.
First, to say that we cannot make judgments in the sense of drawing conclusions... is simply ridiculous. Next, as Christians we ought to be ready... ready to be judged and yet confident that we will not found to be guilty of a negative conclusion.

She nods silently.
Phew, I knew our friendship can withstand something like that.

I wonder now if I have lived blamelessly... hahaha save it, I haven't.

I'm working on it! This sort of... faith testing thing.
Sometimes you move to do before you even desire
and it's faith which sustains you...
faith that as God sees fit, He will grant you the desire.

I know He is watching.