a cycle?

I don't know how many will get angry if I were to describe every year end sharing as somewhat.. cyclical.
I mean, after a few years you kind of get the drift. The same things always happen to the same people...
and their weaknesses often remain the same.

Some sharings did catch me off guard. Some comforted me... in the sense that
"phew, at least they knew it all along"
But I can't shake of the naggy feeling that if we're back year after year sharing the same things... that it means we've gone and forgotten the things we shared the year before.

Most frustrating, I find it in myself. Every year has a theme of arrogance. It also centers on thanksgiving regarding putting blunt people around me who dare correct me.
But every year the mistakes repeat. And often I learn to late... worse, the holidays seem to put a hard reset on all the good work. The forgiving results seem to say "go on, be proud."

But it's okay, there's still a difference.
At least this year I figured out a thing or two about desiring things.

And I must admit, my desires are many, but few are deep (well maybe none are!)
Which is where the problem lies anyway. I don't want something enough to go get it. In the event where I rationally compel myself to pursue it I either get upset easily or get into all sorts of disasters.
2012 has been better because I was able to float at the fringe of those rash behaviours.

I'm learning. I'm keeping track of the things I like. I'm more wary now, at least.