dreadful days

These dreadful days.

You know those days where you find yourself eating your own words hard? The days when you looked back and think to yourself

wow those are some pretty remarkable, mature words. But I must be 10 years old when I said that just a few days ago.

i.e.
the days where you chance upon the full implication of the things you say.

I'm saying this and I cannot say this arrogantly, but I'm living by faith. Every moment, every right choice I make, I make before I even see the promise dear Lord.
Remember our covenant and satisfy me with the good things.
Show me that your love is greater than life.

Show me quickly. Rescue me.