if you read

If you're reading this, i hope you know.
The chemistry test had been a wake up call.
What sounded so distant, what sounded illusive.
What was a joke now sound all so serious.

And i know why.
I finally know why I'm so anxious.
You've always told me that you had low self-esteem, are introverted etc.
People say a trial or 2 is good for your health, puts some energy back into old bones.
They say setbacks make one stronger.

I say a close shave is even more memorable.
I say we should leap over this danger.
You shouldn't have to feel the pain of getting retained.

I'm desperate.
Its such an opportunity that we ended up in the same school.
Its crazier to land in the same OG.
Its insane to become good friends.

Its almost impossible and it happened.
One year slipped past, and i have only 1 more year to leave a mark in your life.
I want to see you confident, i want to see you smile.
I want to see you successful, more importantly
i want to see what you're capable of doing in church, as a christian.

I have but 1 year.
And if something bad was to happen, i figure it'd steal that year away.
Once A levels end, once we have our certs, I estimate we'll part.
I'll only remain as a fragment of your memory, and i won't see you ever again.
With luck, maybe Jacon's birthday parties.
Further pushing it, maybe I can attend yours.

I dream of a beautiful time when everything's over.
When we can go out with friends and savour a breath of refreshing freedom.
Through a storm do we see truly clear skies.
Nothing is sweet without putting up a fight.

When you looked at me, and told me you wanted to understand, I was glad.
With each passing day you sprout and grow, you start thinking harder.
Its been encouraging.

Its more exciting then to witness for myself how life can get more interesting.