i guess

words cant do the justice.
tears cant pay the price.
time wont heal
wat do you want?!

if theres something i missed
theres something i didnt know
thats just too freakin' bad
cauz no one told me anything

wat am i doing
i should've gone to school
every thinking moment
is a sad moment.

they say that happiness
is but a state of the mind
these memories
are playing without sound
i cant feel how i used to
everything's cold
im constricted and frozen
so many things i thought
i thought i promised
yet now everything's prepared
but the heart to carry on.

why, why did you let me ..
feel?

and i dont even want to blame you
i must be a retarded psycho

i went there, on saturday.
sat on the same spot i sat on
the difference was.
you aren't there anymore.
the last time, my first time.
when would this last time-fact
change?
it wouldnt, since we each took our turns
smashed this into bits.
its over, im dishing the final blow
i should be happy, i should
somehow.