On the way home I had an urge for kind words. You know, going back home and asking my friends what they can offer for someone needing a little encouragement. But really, I don't know why I even need that.
Encouragements, really? I think it's attention I'm after. What a recurring theme!
On a side note, it's been really busy lol. I'm making things worse by trying to stifle that feeling. It's like taking drugs you know? They call it coping, not addiction.
But damn it! I don't want things to be like this! I want time to sort myself out after the busying is over. I'm looking forward to the showcase, yes, but I'm desiring the evening so much more.
I really want the evening to come. I really want to see it all.
But tomorrow's a double hurdle. And slowly I wonder..
Am I wrong to desire the aftermath? I sincerely do not know.
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