L-EMS. well done. I'd give myself a pat on the shoulder if.. oh yes i can reach it actually.
But still, today's one of those.. one door opens, another closes day.
As much as I feel happy, I'm weighed down by a few things.
First, my emotional circumstance with which I approached the entire scholarship thing, was definitely less than God pleasing. It's pride. Why EMS. I said it all to you... It's like how I wished I had A+ for my PW.
It's all about distinction. I don't want to get the same as everybody else.
And then there's you, and that undeniable wall to scale. The thing is, as time ticks, I doubt. I really doubt if anything's going to make a difference. I don't think I should care anymore. Sleepless nights are an everlasting testament to how wrong this has gone.
But thanks be to God, for you. You're amazing in the extent you hold back.
You're so amazing. And because you are... we have a way back.
I guess, silently, this has to go. Some day in my intended silence you may miss me. But even those days will fade away. Everything can go if we let them... for... Only we are immortal.
Someday as I take it on, I'll miss you and the silence will shred my heart.
But when the pain fades they may not leave scars.
And in that spring, we shall meet again. Empty handed, carefree...
A day when your smile and laughter
Descends gently upon the pond in my heart.
Softly landing, without rippling.
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