I think I haven't been doing that great.
Sometimes I feel like even after the whole tragedy in August I'm still barely awake, still stuck in some sort of childish disposition.
Still unsure if what I have is love, selfishness or idolatry.
Still stumbling over the same sins, at the same times for the same reasons.
It's very frustrating to think about it because I feel further away from my goals.
And at that moment I feel further still, because I know now that my priorities in life are wrong and they are leading me down dangerous paths.
The goals.
Something fundamental has to change about me. In my desperation I prayed to God to afflict me, for I did not turn towards Him when His face was shining on me.
Wound me so that I'll return
I don't want to be like a fool who is stumbling towards slaughter.
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