Unlikely song

So today after bible study I suddenly realised that there was something I said on Sunday that wronged my friend. Basically, I had very selfishly and dishonestly put the blame on her.
Well she's not just my friend. She's someone I admire... she's someone who took time out that night to talk about something she isn't very keen to talk about and yet this was what I did to her.

I apologised immediately. In her reply she explained that she actually did take offence at what I said. I asked her to forgive me. She says,
"it's okay, I won't take it to heart".

I don't know what to make of it because it sounds so cold.

Whereas for me... I can't believe I did such a thing. In a way, I was disappointed at the revelation of my selfishness. In a way I'm upset about how it was just bad publicity for myself. In a way I'm just lost because I feel like I've wronged her so badly I can never face her again.

Strangely enough, the lyrics of this song came to mind.
我無助的時候，你給我力量；
我害怕的時候，你緊緊抱住我，
當我覺得我不行，你告訴我可以，
你就是那最愛我的主。

我緊緊抓住你，我永遠不放手；
我看到你獨生子，為我釘死在十架上。

我緊緊抓住你，我永遠不放手，
是你醫治了我，是你從來未離開過我。
我已看到我的未來，充滿信心和盼望

It's just like that isn't it. With no where to go, nothing better to say, no one to speak to, with the life sucked out of me, I grasp shamelessly at the Lord who loves me. At the Lord who gives me strength to change. At the Lord who understands and does not overlook nor despise.

I feel like I've really got nothing else.

Update:
Turns out there a message came in while I was typing this post.
She made a joke about herself. She said "don't worry, I forget things very quickly". It's a joke we often make about her flaky memory.

I see that she took pains to try to lighten the mood. I feel so restored. Thank God. Why does grace come so quickly?