matter-of-factly

I just love it sometimes when people say difficult truths matter-of-factly. I like how unapologetic it sounds; the way you shocks me into remorse about how I've been moping and dragging my feet around.

At the moment of hearing you hear this very, divine... challenge to transcend beyond your problems and unhappiness. To take a good fresh look at the situation and the weight upon your shoulders and to bravely say "so be it".

This time round it was after a meeting for historical night and Justin came to speak to me and ask if everything was okay. I replied that frankly I feel really stressed because there is a lot of things to do. I felt the need to qualify that it is not that the things are too many, but that I've just been used to living a carefree selfish lifestyle that is not fit to bear the load. Concluding with the solution to my own problem, I pointed out that what I need is some discipline and organising of my life, to which he casually replied,

"Oh yeah since 5 years ago I've said goodbye to that sort of carefree life."

In that simple response he chased away the sort of self-pity which was hiding behind what I was saying. I was pitying myself for having now to live life seriously– this was something I was not fully aware of.

Anyway, okay, time to move onto other things, just thought I'd write this here to remember and to call myself to account for it.