deficit of thanksgiving

It's not unheard that I was not pleased to see that I scored high for "D" in DISC test.
"D" is for dominance and is known as the "leader" trait.

I don't like to think that I'm high in dominance, I know personally that I actually prefer to be part of the team rather than to be the team leader. Fair enough, I find myself frequently taking over the leader in those situations, but I have no desire nor enjoyment of the authority of a leader. I detest it, I want to get it off me.

And as my results were flashed for all to see, the "there!" "knew it!" etc. came as I anticipated them to come. That greatly displeased me because it seemed to cement the idea that putting me as head of youth ministry was the right choice.
I don't like to think of it as a the right choice because I'm not in my most comfortable and, as I'd like to think, ideal position. I don't think I work best there, I think sometimes I really just make a blunder of leadership. I had wished the results would prove otherwise, that they may take a closer look at me once again and affirm that I was indeed not the man for the job.

It doesn't help that I was made to be the class rep in my module today. First lesson and I was singled out by the professor to be the class rep. I hate to think that perhaps there are perceivable, stereotypical, leadership qualities in me.

But I wonder if I were behaving to the best of my ability. What if somehow I accept these duties. What if I say

Dear Lord I'm nothing
And I'm surprised that You saw it fit to gift these things to me
So I thank You for everything
Let my service do the talking
Amen

I'm not playing that reluctant leader anymore. I'm taking ownership of the things you've placed me in charge of.
If anything, as thanksgiving for all you've given me.