recently. i've been screwing around with the time i have.
sometimes, the rare times i sit back to go brutal on the things i do
brutally honest i mean, evaluate every screwing-around i've been involved in.

i dont know, im really upset when i try to help people who well.. more or less gave up themselves.
i dont know. shouldnt i be compassionate and... feel sorry for them? why have i gone further in the spectrum to all these bitterness and who-knows-what.

oh God help me. i'm such a fool. i can't make decisions in my life without you.
everything goes wrong when im alone..