lack substance.

Isit really a PJ curse, that nobody ever makes it to law from there?

I'm about to snap over the anticipation of my admission results.
Everyone's gotten theirs and mine.. mine's just floating around in the thin air
somewhere there, not there.. faint taste painful hope kinda thing.

As i reflected, many times these few weeks, over my oral interview
I want to give my smiling face a tight slap.
I want to scream at myself "WHY THE HECK DO YOU SMILE, DO YOU NOT GENUINELY CARE?!"
i dont know if the prevailing weather report written on my face is God-glorifying.
I'm not sure if its the condition of entrusting all onto him, or just a relapse of my frivolity.

I'm not even sure why i wanna go law, why i did not gun for a sure through course like
pure science/ econs double degree.
What am i trying to prove exactly, along with that PSC scholarship?

has this top student thing poisoned my mind? Why have i started to follow what others deem to be good and deserving of me?

Gosh, i better reflect, and reflect fast before those veins of frustration rupture.
Its time i found the self i left behind, that faithful 5th march afternoon.

i know i was disappointed at how many people took the news.
But honestly dear boy, that's a horrible excuse.