When i was packing my bag for camp earlier in the morning, i found my PJC pe shirt.
Brings back memories, its been months since i last donned the shirt.
It was like this...
A hot afternoon (like which one in singapore isn't?), it was x-country day in PJC. I was still a freshman then, together with everyone else from the JAE admission. Its been exactly 8 days spent in PJ.
Walking and recounting past achievements in fairfield x-country, a smile of confidence broke on my face.
THere they are, my OG members, all crowded at a table. Oh look, they're fascinated with something i cannot remember. As a approached them, this guy called alex turned and as me a question out of the blue.
" EH! what's that? Sports bra?"
"how would i kn...." i almost replied instantly, stopping only to realise that he was talking abt the black sleeveless tee i wore inside. I got a little angry. Like as if he wouldnt know that guys dont wear sports bra, no matter how muscular they made their chests- and mine arent even muscular at all.
Okay whatever, the story continues with me going into the toilet to remove the inner shirt, run and miss a position by 1.
Sleeveless tee, otherwise known as singlets were worn by me, and still are, to help me escape the projection of my image as someone being skinny. Of course, there are also reasons such as how my head is naturally big and being skinny just makes me look awfully retarded.
As i recount, i realise that i wore it for more self confidence. most evident when i wore it, after many months, during my Oral Presentation exams. Sure, i lack self confidence. But now when anyone guesses that im wearing an extra shirt inside, i'd admit, unlike in the past.
Perhaps i'm just starting to own up to my own inadequaties.
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