handsome.

no im not gay.
lol cauz' handsome is me.

BLEAAGH!

ok lets just put it this way. today was weird.
its been well. im just sorry i let you walk away.
im sorry for the cold answers i kept throwing you.
drop the subject drop the subject....
its been all too weird.

everyday's a swirling cauldron of thoughts.
of anything but just. a strain of thoughts.
i caught the essence of the math lesson but.
in my mind just rang these 2 persons.

i would start asking funny questions.
i would start questioning life after the O's
it could be left, right, or as it is already.
or maybe there is even this turn backwards.
i kept dreaming and i cannot stop.

because i cant stop thinking im worth it.
maybe its because i took advantage of your kindness.
maybe there is no reciprocation.
maybe im deluded
lets spill this all someday.

the most cruel method could be lovely.
all our blood spilled to numbness.
lets not get too professional with something
THIS PERSONAL.