loner? i kinda love it.

a little company will be fine, but being alone is just as fun.
thinking about the increased frequency of me walking around my neighbourhood
in my hoody, squinting my eyes for the tiny stars in the sky.
having soundless sighs or comforting laughter
a random glimpse of smile emerged from my mind.
everything is inside, only the walk is partial physical.
im alone, and i guess im with God. i really cant say if im sure.

im too used to being alone. im happy when my friends are around
but guess their departure won't be too tough.
guess i'll rush some homework now, and go emo later.
its just so fun, its like life 8years ago.
it WAS utopia, took me so long to realise.
its just 8 years ago when i told my dad i'll be a happier person if i dont have to study
-a few months ago when i was unreasonably justifying not doing homework.
now?
i wonder...