love, at a price.

Dear YS
I dont know why your tone changed when i shared that i've been trying to get over 2 girls, at the same time. What i speculate is, either im overreacting, or you're holding so fast to your belief in "true love".
You know, sometimes i doubt anyone really understands what i mean when i say i like somebody.
Most people refuse to be honest with themselves, thinking that a 'better' word, 'infatuation' will do them justice.
I dont want to judge them, but they can be wrong about themselves, unwilling to admit the weakness they share along with me, and happily absolving their guilt with a change of words.
Of course when we say "get over" it really means that the liking goes beyond secret admiring. That perhaps some course of action had been considered... and perhaps carried out fully or partially.
What i want to tell you is this: love isnt some lovey dovey thingy that happens when 2 people are inclined towards one another.
Love comes at a price, and that price i believe, is incurred at the choice.
I've always told myself, and now i tell you: dont be ridiculous, you may be destined for a certain person (infact i fancy the idea that humans are created in pairs) but until we're married we'll never know who that other half of a pair is. So since we'll never know, until we view, perhaps 1 second, perhaps a handful of years, from retrospect. Therefore, since we'll never know, dont imagine love to be a downstream river flow that guides you on a linear path...
The reality is that we make choices everyday. And the reality is also that at this given time, we cannot say confidently (and insolently) that we'll end up with anybody. Anything can happen. Sure i may confidently say that i'll not end up with an ahlian... or some random woman in africa- fair enough. But as far as im concerned, every decent lady around my age... is a door that can be opened, but only one of which i'll be stepping into.
Hence, you think to yourself. Oh no, tuckyan is yet another jerk who flirts with girls and stuff, he didnt really love his girlfriend!
WOMAN, let me tell you this, love started when i chose her. When i've decided that no matter how some other girl may appear to be more attractive, i'll be staying together with her, enjoying her, sacrificing for her and try to keep her i proved my love..
Do you understand?
Now wake up from your fairy tale and spare me any look of disgust.
So perhaps girls are frightfully faithful and only like 1 guy at any one given time.
Great, now i told you that not all guys are the same as girls.. and for those of them, they try ever harder.