waste.

This week has been spent regretfully.

The week is replete (new word learnt today) with repetitive wastage of time.
Its just pre U sem squandering, no self control in partying and finally, spending
an untold, obscene amount of time on msn, talking.
I start to wonder, in through the current cloud of headache caressing my head,
i wonder if i'm too human.
What too human? TOO WEAK! NO RESOLVE! ARGH!

you guys must wonder: how does it feel to interview ministers?

well anyway. so i went to ____&______ on thursday.
I've gotta tell you, that place was luxurious. Simply luxurious.
The view of the CBD is amazingly akin to the one we see on television. Tainted glass,
city view.. you get it?
I got really hyped up about meeting a minister. Perhaps indeed people do
make the government out to be something just.. a cut above, just some
lofty standard the rest of us will never reach.

But i tell you. Someday, someday i can be there.

so there they were with their well practiced smile, their unblemished articulation
of fluent flowing string of lingual material.
But look closely and expose it all. Perhaps they aren't so unthinkable afterall!

Perhaps I have extreme high expectations, perhaps... I cant help but keep seeing that I may
be SORELY WRONG about the world and its standards... the world.. it just doesnt
seem so great anymore. Its standards... arent much after all.
（btw, i really dont want to get arrested for writing this, i really didnt say that ministers are lousy, i said " perhaps i have extreme high expectations")

i walked out of the conference room feeling rather faint. I've never been so tensed for so long in my life. Then again, maybe my tension wasn't necessary.
again i feel i can speak (after the teachers demanded that i suck at enunciating). Maybe, that's about the best thing i got from the encounter: a fragment of confidence.

well bk drumlets were quite nice. And that summed up my day on thursday.
You must think, MAN! YOUR LIFE IS UTTERLY BORING!

it isnt, i think, i just make it out to be.