hello, back again.

ahhh.. osrry sorry.. i havent been blogging, at all.
it isnt a sin, but im feeling uneasy.. what am i supposed to say to all my fans?!
ok anyway, just really happy that the extended has already ended, and its officially holiday.
i would...
finally make my IC, after some 1 month plus.
buy my new schoool term books
do 120 mathematics questions, insane?
write more nonsense on this blog.
go outings?
go for 2 chalets
2 church camps
i wished i could go to bangkok, but it clashes with dom 7 camp
slog my guts out for the church youth camp
do something, something but i dunno wat yet
ok now for the omgwtfbbq emo part.
ok some disclaimers. dont think this is you, cauz u might think so and start scuttering
to a corner after knowing how emo my "love life" is, which is actually no life.
and im not interested to hav a life in the love life, untill im well, my age times 2 minus
6?
ok here goes.
someday, i saw her, she with him, and him wasnt me. Him could have been me, but i
had decided to follow HE.
ok enough from that sentence, now for the dissection.
she is, u noe... him is, she's u noe.... HE, is God.
i dont have time for relationships,
i dont even have the mind to take it.
if i went and decided to be dumb,
to sign up for a looney crash cross....
i knew i'd
die.....
so i didnt, time isnt ripe, it isnt on my side.
if i did things by my stride,
simply for my pride, things would turn ugly,
now, if not later.
I asked God today, if i made the right choice, tears flow down
and all was clear. I did make the right choice.
i dont care if i die without having a girlfriend
i dont care if i pass without a mark of a relationship
i dont even care if i die without knowing if anyone actually wanted me
it doesnt matter, they're mere deco's on my passport
deco's i'd love to have, but yet are
as useless as any other deco's are.
so i lost, i lost her to another guy uh?
i hate to to that, but i really, will never stick a nose of a novice
into a matter of such complexity.
though i think of the choice i made as right,
i cant help but feel a little unwell
as my insides tangled in a raging fight.

i hope my choice was right, lord, watever u take away, u promised
to substitute it with yourself.
even if the circle of chance doesnt come around, Lord, have your
way.
in me.