She said that I should take care to not let my mind and my imagination run wild.
I can't believe that it took me so long to appreciate what she was telling me, the whole time I was agreeing but never really saw the value of it.
At least, not the full value of it.
Now I'm taking pains, arresting every imagination of a future with her.
Those I suppose, do not currently belong.
You know, I've always admired this person.
What has made it unbearable recently was really the mismatch between what is imagined..
and what is real.
But on top of this I also want to arrest the worry which springs to mind.. the worry that one day it'll just be someone else.
I'm a fool. Do I even know what I'm thinking?
God help me to meditate on Your fatherhood.
Help me to consider the sort of parenting You're into.
All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.
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