dont know what to think anymore

but it doesnt matter anymore

one day there'll no longer be a need to.

With prelims before me, i took a peek behind.
I saw the fleet footed past 2 years rampaging behind.
headed straight for me, an unstoppable raging torrent.

i sure could choose to step aside, for the corridoor of time is timelessly narrow.

the achievments, the dreams, the stupidity the hurts
the glory, the moments of natural.. and the forced.
turning to the side, i'm just glad we decided to walk to your house.
so i could timely mention.. that if given a chance, for once..
just for once, i'll re-live these 2 heavy years..
to set everything right, to not have liked you..
to not have joined ambassadors, to have submitted my homework..
to have remained anti social, to not have mixed with the popular bunch
to have studied for gp, to have remained humble
to have tried harder to keep our OG together
to have continued studying chemistry with you, to have cleared my mathematics problems
to have appreciated physics, to have gymned while i can
to not have joined pre-u seminar, to have followed mr tham's ideas
to not have tried to be clever, to not have attempted to chase after the unthinkable
to have been more of a moron, to have had little courage before girls
to have been a better christian, to have picked up the bible
to have set a better example for jason, to have made my worship leading sessions more fruitful
to have joined wednesday frisbee pickups earlier..

Now, the gush is zooming past the narrow corridor, flicking specks of grime into my face
Behind it follows quickly a solid wall of darkness, swiftly devouring the once travelled passage...
The lagging, now precious few drops of water are disappearing.
The pictures of happiness are.. the memories are fading.

one day all the drama will be nothing more than a stone cold stool
and everything once strived for buried dead deep in the depths of the earth.
but its fine so long as i dont live, as i lived in the past, again.

but i.. i'm drenched in the historic moment where my legs, in an unexplainable motion
brought me back into the depths of it all.
now its not just the grime anymore.